my stomach is tied in knots and my heart is in my mouth.

i'm sitting in a belgian living room, in belgium, watching a belgian girl hoover her belgian rug. thats not a euphemism by the way.
it's weird being here. it's weird seeing her. it's weird because i don't want to leave. i want to stay here, with her, and never let her go.
i might have got myself into trouble here. stupid heart.
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this might actually be the lamest and most pathetic post i've ever done, anywhere, ever, but...

i've just seen a trailer for 'Dissidia Final Fantasy' square-enix's up-coming fighting game, and i just don't know what to think.

for example. theres a point during the trailer where tidus jumps into the air doing one of his gravity-defying blitzball moves ( Read more... )

not updated in a while. that's the problem with stealing your internet wirelessly from next door, when it stops working you can't go and fiddle with the router to fix it. but it's back now. and i'm updating ( Read more... )

i spent my life on a boat. eight hours of nothing at all, other than being asked inappropriate questions by old couples, glimpsing an overweight mother breast feeding out of the corner of my eye and leaving the bar, and being lectured on jellyfish by a twenty-something man in a tracksuit. but the upshot of all this is that now, at long last i'm ( Read more... )

i don't half annoy myself. i get myself worked up too easily. i fall too quickly. and i always, always, fuck it up ( Read more... )

...nearly 5am infact. i'm sat on the kitchen roof. the dim light of dawn is beginning to creep into the sky.  the slow melodic tones of a piano are all i can hear through the enormous headphones engulfing my ears. a cigarette sits neatly between my fingers, making typing ever so slightly more difficult. ash falls onto the keyboard every now and ( Read more... )

...is on in the background as i write this. its been too long since my last update, and i dont have long so im going to be brief ( Read more... )

so it's been a while since my last update. at least i think it has. time passes me by so quickly these days i can barely keep track of what day it is. i was about to say not much has happened but i guess its been an eventful few weeks/days. started working (at long last) last monday. call center work, but the admin side rather than the answering ( Read more... )

well, things are finally starting to shape up. got a new job, which i'm NOT looking forward to. call center work. blah! but at least ive got money coming in again. started looking for a new place too, so the next week should be nice and exciting i guess. other than that, what is there really to say ( Read more... )