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Title: Teen Spirit (2 of 2)
Rating: T
Summary: There is something strange going on with Ryan. Contains mild language and drug references.
Word Count: 1,648
I personally think this whole story is a load of rubbish but I'm using writing as a way to keep my mind off everything.
Ryan was going crazy. His head ached, he couldn’t stop shaking and he kept having to pee in a cup for random nurses who kept coming into his room.
The days were all muddling into one and he was trapped in this room surrounded by four walls. One of which had a huge mirror which he knew people could see him through but he couldn’t see them. He hated it, he hated the exposure.
Sandy had promised that he’d stay with him and yet there was no sign of him yet. He understood Kirsten and Seth not coming. He had hit Seth after all but he was still hurt that there had been no sign of them.
The nights were the worst. He kept having recurring nightmares and the doctors would strap him down. He’d wake up screaming with a bunch of strangers surrounding him and raw wrists. This was not what he’d agreed too.
He sat hunched over next to his bed and rubbed at his stinging wrists. He could feel eyes watching him but he couldn’t see them and it made him feel so uncomfortable.
He never spoke to the doctors or nurses, no matter how hard they tried to make him. He stayed quiet but did everything they asked him to do. He didn’t want to piss them off.
He ignored the sound of the door opening and didn’t move. He heard footsteps getting closer and they stopped next to him.
A hand appeared on his shoulder and he flinched away from it.
“You’re doing so well kid,” Sandy’s voice floated towards him and his head shot upwards. Sandy stood over him, his face holding a nervous but sturdy smile.
“I’m sorry we haven’t been in here with you but Dr Green wouldn’t let us come in. We’ve been just outside though, we haven’t left you.”
Ryan gave a little nod but stayed quiet.
“So, the doctors are all really optimistic. They say you’re quiet but making huge progress. All the nurses are fighting over who gets to come into your room, you’re their best patient”
Ryan shrugged and looked back to the floor. He heard Sandy sigh and sit down next to him properly.
“Come on Ryan, you must have something to say. All the doctors and nurses are worried about your lack of speech. I know you like to speak as little as possible but this is exceeding all of your previous records.” He rubbed his face with his hand and sunk against the bed.
“I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.” He admitted and Ryan looked at him confused. “Kirsten’s unhappy, you’re not talking, Seth is pissed at me…” He paused.
”I don’t know how I missed all of the signs for this,” He stopped realising how much he was telling Ryan when really it should be the other way around. Ryan should be talking to him about his problems.
He understood his son’s ability to talk so much to Ryan all the time. He never complained and listened closely to what you had to say. It was nice to have someone quiet to talk to who wouldn’t say anything you said to someone else.
“I’m sorry,” the words were hoarse and quiet but Sandy heard them loud and clear.
“So you can speak, you won’t believe how worried we have all been,” Sandy gushed and then stopped himself.
“I thought you’d gone,” Sandy felt his heart pound at those words. Yes Ryan had done a bad thing, taking drugs and lying about it but the thought that he’d thought they had abandoned him like his mother had was too much to bear.
“What made you take them in the first place?” He asked quietly.
Ryan breathed out deeply, feeling ashamed. He had done the thing that he had most hated about the men his mom used to bring home.
He couldn’t believe the impact it had had on his new family.
“I just…” He paused and fiddled with his hands.
His voice still sounded hoarse and still quiet but Sandy hung on to each word.
“I needed a way to cope and they seemed to help for a while I guess.” He said barely above a whisper.
Sandy nodded. “You know you could have talked to us. Kirsten, Seth and I… we’re there for you. You don’t have to go through all this alone. We expect you to take a while to adjust after all, you’ve only been here for a few months…”
Ryan looked up at him. “I miss her … but I know she won’t come back and sometimes it hurts and I just need an escape,”
Sandy was at a loss for words, he put his arm around him and Ryan stared ahead at nothing trying to keep his emotions in check.
It felt odd telling Sandy all of his deepest feelings but it had just felt right. Sandy had poured his heart out to him and he had felt he should talk to him in return. He’d never been so honest with anyone before especially about hid mother.
They both sat together on the floor in silence.
The silence was broken by a nurse coming in for check ups and Sandy was asked to leave.
“I’ll be back tomorrow kid, okay?” Ryan nodded. Inwardly he wondered how Sandy could be so nice to him; he had hit Seth after all. He knew that Kirsten would be a different case altogether; he’d seen the look of distrust on her face when he’d been walked past her.
xxx
The next day, Ryan expected Sandy to come through the door every time it was opened, and each time it would be a nurse or a counsellor. He told himself Sandy wouldn’t leave him but he felt the worry mount every time he was disappointed.
He had stopped speaking again but not in a rebellious way. It was just because he was too busy thinking over why Sandy wasn’t there to have the energy to actually open his mouth to say anything.
He was surprised on one occasion when the door opened to reveal Kirsten. He sat with a bated breath to see what she was going to do.
“I’m sorry,” he offered when she just stood a few feet from the bed looking down at him.
She didn’t say anything but sat down next to him on the floor and they both absorbed each others silences. He knew that he had broken her trust and that as a Newport girl she would not be able to understand why he had been so stupid unlike Sandy had.
“I’m sorry too,” She whispered. “I’m sorry I didn’t notice you were upset and I’m sorry that I was angry when I found out or that I didn’t come in with Sandy yesterday,”
He hadn’t realised she had meant to be with Sandy yesterday but he was that she was here with him now. He hated how lonely he felt when he was left alone here.
“I wish there was a way I could erase your past and rewrite it with us. I need to remember you are not Seth, you react to things differently.” Briefly Ryan wondered to himself how the Cohens were always able to talk out their feelings to him. They always joked around with each other but when he was alone with one of them, they would be serious (excluding Seth of course) and spoke what they were feeling.
“I’m sorry I let you down,” He said quietly.
They both sat in silence again and Kirsten rubbed his knee gently with her hand.
“It’s okay. We just feel bad that we didn’t spot the signs and had to wait for Seth to point it out to us.” She said finally.
“Are you tired? The doctors told us about your nightmares and that you’re not sleeping well.” She asked looking at him concerned.
He shrugged and she was about to say something when the door opened and she was told to leave by the nurse. She got up hesitantly and gave him a final hug before leaving.
xxx
Each day either Sandy or Kirsten would come in. Sometimes they would come in together and other times it would just be one of them.
Each day passed as quick as the one before and each day he began to feel better and better. His shaking eased and so did his nightmares. It was nice to have a good nights sleep. It was also nice to see the purple sacks under his eyes begin to fade.
He had no idea how long he’d been there until all the Cohens came into the room. He was surprised to see Seth there included, even more so when Seth pulled him into a hug.
“I’m so sorry man,” he whispered and Ryan frowned, what could he be sorry for?
Sandy and Kirsten sat around on the chairs provided and Seth sat down on the floor next to Ryan. They passed the first few minutes in silence, but Set being Seth couldn’t hold it for very long and began rambling to Ryan about all the house hold “drama” he’d missed whilst he’d been away. He was amazed at how resilient Seth truly was.
It wasn’t the end and no one could foresee what was going to happen but having all the family around him made Ryan see just what he had nearly jeopardised. The thought of letting the Cohens down again was not something he wanted to do again.
A silent agreement was renewed between them all that they would be there for each other from now on. Sandy looked down at the three people around him and told himself he would not let one of his family members feel so low again. Soon Ryan would be home and he promised himself that no matter what, Ryan was a part of this family. No matter ho bad his child hood was, he was with them now and would always be a member of the family no matter what.
The End.
Thanks for reading :D
Rating: T
Summary: There is something strange going on with Ryan. Contains mild language and drug references.
Word Count: 1,648
I personally think this whole story is a load of rubbish but I'm using writing as a way to keep my mind off everything.
Ryan was going crazy. His head ached, he couldn’t stop shaking and he kept having to pee in a cup for random nurses who kept coming into his room.
The days were all muddling into one and he was trapped in this room surrounded by four walls. One of which had a huge mirror which he knew people could see him through but he couldn’t see them. He hated it, he hated the exposure.
Sandy had promised that he’d stay with him and yet there was no sign of him yet. He understood Kirsten and Seth not coming. He had hit Seth after all but he was still hurt that there had been no sign of them.
The nights were the worst. He kept having recurring nightmares and the doctors would strap him down. He’d wake up screaming with a bunch of strangers surrounding him and raw wrists. This was not what he’d agreed too.
He sat hunched over next to his bed and rubbed at his stinging wrists. He could feel eyes watching him but he couldn’t see them and it made him feel so uncomfortable.
He never spoke to the doctors or nurses, no matter how hard they tried to make him. He stayed quiet but did everything they asked him to do. He didn’t want to piss them off.
He ignored the sound of the door opening and didn’t move. He heard footsteps getting closer and they stopped next to him.
A hand appeared on his shoulder and he flinched away from it.
“You’re doing so well kid,” Sandy’s voice floated towards him and his head shot upwards. Sandy stood over him, his face holding a nervous but sturdy smile.
“I’m sorry we haven’t been in here with you but Dr Green wouldn’t let us come in. We’ve been just outside though, we haven’t left you.”
Ryan gave a little nod but stayed quiet.
“So, the doctors are all really optimistic. They say you’re quiet but making huge progress. All the nurses are fighting over who gets to come into your room, you’re their best patient”
Ryan shrugged and looked back to the floor. He heard Sandy sigh and sit down next to him properly.
“Come on Ryan, you must have something to say. All the doctors and nurses are worried about your lack of speech. I know you like to speak as little as possible but this is exceeding all of your previous records.” He rubbed his face with his hand and sunk against the bed.
“I don’t know what I’m supposed to do.” He admitted and Ryan looked at him confused. “Kirsten’s unhappy, you’re not talking, Seth is pissed at me…” He paused.
”I don’t know how I missed all of the signs for this,” He stopped realising how much he was telling Ryan when really it should be the other way around. Ryan should be talking to him about his problems.
He understood his son’s ability to talk so much to Ryan all the time. He never complained and listened closely to what you had to say. It was nice to have someone quiet to talk to who wouldn’t say anything you said to someone else.
“I’m sorry,” the words were hoarse and quiet but Sandy heard them loud and clear.
“So you can speak, you won’t believe how worried we have all been,” Sandy gushed and then stopped himself.
“I thought you’d gone,” Sandy felt his heart pound at those words. Yes Ryan had done a bad thing, taking drugs and lying about it but the thought that he’d thought they had abandoned him like his mother had was too much to bear.
“What made you take them in the first place?” He asked quietly.
Ryan breathed out deeply, feeling ashamed. He had done the thing that he had most hated about the men his mom used to bring home.
He couldn’t believe the impact it had had on his new family.
“I just…” He paused and fiddled with his hands.
His voice still sounded hoarse and still quiet but Sandy hung on to each word.
“I needed a way to cope and they seemed to help for a while I guess.” He said barely above a whisper.
Sandy nodded. “You know you could have talked to us. Kirsten, Seth and I… we’re there for you. You don’t have to go through all this alone. We expect you to take a while to adjust after all, you’ve only been here for a few months…”
Ryan looked up at him. “I miss her … but I know she won’t come back and sometimes it hurts and I just need an escape,”
Sandy was at a loss for words, he put his arm around him and Ryan stared ahead at nothing trying to keep his emotions in check.
It felt odd telling Sandy all of his deepest feelings but it had just felt right. Sandy had poured his heart out to him and he had felt he should talk to him in return. He’d never been so honest with anyone before especially about hid mother.
They both sat together on the floor in silence.
The silence was broken by a nurse coming in for check ups and Sandy was asked to leave.
“I’ll be back tomorrow kid, okay?” Ryan nodded. Inwardly he wondered how Sandy could be so nice to him; he had hit Seth after all. He knew that Kirsten would be a different case altogether; he’d seen the look of distrust on her face when he’d been walked past her.
xxx
The next day, Ryan expected Sandy to come through the door every time it was opened, and each time it would be a nurse or a counsellor. He told himself Sandy wouldn’t leave him but he felt the worry mount every time he was disappointed.
He had stopped speaking again but not in a rebellious way. It was just because he was too busy thinking over why Sandy wasn’t there to have the energy to actually open his mouth to say anything.
He was surprised on one occasion when the door opened to reveal Kirsten. He sat with a bated breath to see what she was going to do.
“I’m sorry,” he offered when she just stood a few feet from the bed looking down at him.
She didn’t say anything but sat down next to him on the floor and they both absorbed each others silences. He knew that he had broken her trust and that as a Newport girl she would not be able to understand why he had been so stupid unlike Sandy had.
“I’m sorry too,” She whispered. “I’m sorry I didn’t notice you were upset and I’m sorry that I was angry when I found out or that I didn’t come in with Sandy yesterday,”
He hadn’t realised she had meant to be with Sandy yesterday but he was that she was here with him now. He hated how lonely he felt when he was left alone here.
“I wish there was a way I could erase your past and rewrite it with us. I need to remember you are not Seth, you react to things differently.” Briefly Ryan wondered to himself how the Cohens were always able to talk out their feelings to him. They always joked around with each other but when he was alone with one of them, they would be serious (excluding Seth of course) and spoke what they were feeling.
“I’m sorry I let you down,” He said quietly.
They both sat in silence again and Kirsten rubbed his knee gently with her hand.
“It’s okay. We just feel bad that we didn’t spot the signs and had to wait for Seth to point it out to us.” She said finally.
“Are you tired? The doctors told us about your nightmares and that you’re not sleeping well.” She asked looking at him concerned.
He shrugged and she was about to say something when the door opened and she was told to leave by the nurse. She got up hesitantly and gave him a final hug before leaving.
xxx
Each day either Sandy or Kirsten would come in. Sometimes they would come in together and other times it would just be one of them.
Each day passed as quick as the one before and each day he began to feel better and better. His shaking eased and so did his nightmares. It was nice to have a good nights sleep. It was also nice to see the purple sacks under his eyes begin to fade.
He had no idea how long he’d been there until all the Cohens came into the room. He was surprised to see Seth there included, even more so when Seth pulled him into a hug.
“I’m so sorry man,” he whispered and Ryan frowned, what could he be sorry for?
Sandy and Kirsten sat around on the chairs provided and Seth sat down on the floor next to Ryan. They passed the first few minutes in silence, but Set being Seth couldn’t hold it for very long and began rambling to Ryan about all the house hold “drama” he’d missed whilst he’d been away. He was amazed at how resilient Seth truly was.
It wasn’t the end and no one could foresee what was going to happen but having all the family around him made Ryan see just what he had nearly jeopardised. The thought of letting the Cohens down again was not something he wanted to do again.
A silent agreement was renewed between them all that they would be there for each other from now on. Sandy looked down at the three people around him and told himself he would not let one of his family members feel so low again. Soon Ryan would be home and he promised himself that no matter what, Ryan was a part of this family. No matter ho bad his child hood was, he was with them now and would always be a member of the family no matter what.
The End.
Thanks for reading :D