Comments | philo_phobia: trip through memory lane.

philo_phobia

trip through memory lane.

Nov 01, 2007 20:06

I dont know why I am doing this, but I made a playlist full of songs that remind me of some of the worst times of my life up till now. These include songs that I listened to in high school when I thought life was handing me a bag of shit, songs that I listened to in my car on the way to some dudes house, songs that were memories with friends I dont ( Read more... )

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i_got_luckey November 2 2007, 17:58:37 UTC

hope everything is good with you?

philo_phobia November 4 2007, 05:36:30 UTC

I think it really is, but I am just ready to settle down. I think that my past and present are just struggling to make sense of being responsible. I guess we all have to figure out what works for our lives, but whatever recipe I have going now isnt really working for me. Its extremely confusing.

How is everything going with you and your little family? I havent been keeping up with the haps. I cant wait to have my own one day! <3

i_got_luckey November 4 2007, 21:55:46 UTC

oh yes. we live in arizona now. i am going to esthetican school in about a week and we are going to buy a house in a year or so

shes_cliche November 3 2007, 02:36:37 UTC

You know I'm always here for you. You can always talk to me :(

philo_phobia November 4 2007, 05:32:56 UTC

I think Im in such an awkward stage in life, nothing and no one is helping the matter. I really feel like when I talk to people, they really dont understand. I also realize that I have to get over this whole issue of "no one understanding", because its me and no one ever will completely understand. All the changes, rejection and selfishness of people around me catches me by surprise. Maybe its just me being insecure? I think its just being hormonal and 22. Ill snap out of it once I get my life in sync and start making some money. Im just not good at having such a hectic pattern. How are you little darling?

Isnt it funny that I was just thinking in my head that "if I was skinny, then all this wouldnt matter". SO horrible...ahhhhaskljdfl

shes_cliche November 5 2007, 16:04:05 UTC

haha worst way to think!. I used to think that way and being thinner doesn;t make things better, maybe a tad bit confident but then you get used to your size and think you are fat again when you havent gained anything. Its definately being in our 20's, teen years for me were hectic but I didn't realize how hormonal and crazy I am these days. backt then it was just disstructivness and being studid, now its like I'm doing everything right and I'm not distructive at all but still I feel like my mind is going crazy sometimes. Its so weird how our bodies change every few years, and it effects so much of our lives. I recently started a birthcontrol with one hormone, which has really helped balance me out. Its really helped. Hang in there mama I'm going through the same thing. I remember your mom saying something awhile back like "I would never go back to my 20's" Now I kinda see why.

dirtydeets November 3 2007, 20:44:25 UTC

whenever i hear hey-ya it reminds me of you.

philo_phobia November 4 2007, 05:27:46 UTC

HI WIFEY! (literally)

I have seen just a glimpse of the woman that you have become and its so cool to see that there are real women out there. You have been in the back of my mind since the last time I saw you and I would really love to see your pretty face. I know you have a hubby now and all, but maybe we can get lunch or we can go on a couple's dinner. Take care Mrs. :)