Why me?

[phinnybaby]

Whats the point. I suppose that's what i really want to know. What am I in this for. Three months ago i would have told you for the laughs the memories, the companionship and the feeling of being loved. Last week I would have told you that I was in this becuase you should stick by what you believe and that Its not worth losing something like that.

Comments

[kelynkay]

hey. i know we pretty much don't talk ever, but i read your post and know where you're comin' from. relationships are hard things to deal with, especially when they're going south. I don't know the full situation, but it seems to me like you're genuinely not happy. To me, you're seem more concerned with the friends you'll loose if you split up than by actually not being with her. Granted, friends are important, but, if they're truly friends, they'll stick by you no matter what you end up doing. it's a really hard decision, but I say go with your gut feelings. I don't know if you're a praying type, but I guess my best suggestion would be to pray about it. Even if you're not, I'd give it a try. It's amazing how much clarity can come from one little prayer. Anyway, I don't know why I decided to share my two cents worth, but I hope that it helps somehow. Good luck and take care.

[saunsarai]

Not to be a downer, but it sounds like one way or another it's not going to work unless both of you REALLY work hard. I just went through a similar situation: my ex just broke up with me 2 weeks ago--but he didn't even have an explanation. There was no warning. I definitely know what you're feeling though--what the pain feels like. How hard it is to cope. You need to just follow your heart.

As for your friends: your real friends will still be there for you, even if you put them on the backburner for awhile. If they're not around, they aren't as good of friends as you think they are. You'll meet new people in your lifetime and share new experiences. I know it's tough now, but you'll be okay.

[cornstar43]

Today was the first time in about 2 months that I have posted or even read a LiveJournal for that matter, but I saw your entry. I'm sorry things have seemed to waiver in your relationship man. Obviously I don't know the entire story behind much of what you discuss in your entry, and forgive me for the naivity of the following cliche'... "Working through hard times is what makes a relationship stronger, if it is to exist." I suppose that cliche was only in my own words, but it's somthing I've tried to pursue while in a relationship. Granted, my relationships had nowhere near the depth of yours right now, but I still think it holds true. Perhaps "working through the hard times" has happened too much in the past and it is not making matters worse in getting through them. It is a terrible shame when a relationship reaches that point and you come to realizations that you mention. Things may not be as bad as they seem, though, but again I don't know the full situation and I don't want to judge. If you feel like you're not on the same page

[sistagirl_127]

Hey Todd, I know you wrote this post a while ago, and its been forever since Ive seen/talked to you. its hard weighing all the what ifs and thinking about outcomes.. I hope that whatever your decision, you keep yourself in mind and your happiness.