i wanna go to DISNEYLAND!!!!!!!!!!! ugh. bah humbag.


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i spoke with ate apple & ate sheryl. they've given me advices. both ways. it's hard to think that my competition for your love is not against someone new, someone free. but someone who has moved on and is part of your past. it's not that you can't love. it's that you're not yet ready. it's hard that i couldn't do anything to change how you feel. ( Read more... )

Things to remember

• be strong!
• no regrets
• i deserve to be happy
• i need to understand and let go
• things happen for a reason even if we don't know what it is right now.

my cousins are trying to help me move on. there are some things that are so hurtful. it makes me think. feelngs don't go away. was i passing time? was i a rebound? i know the reasons. it was probably never your intention to hurt me. but you did. dreams are dreams. but when you say you're thinking about her, it means that she's still a very ( Read more... )

i'm in frisco. i drove for 6 hours. i haven't cried all day. til now. my tears just suddenly started to fall. crying my eyes out again. i was strong the whole day. i was strong the whole trip here. i was strong for my mom. i don't want her to see me crying. keeping it in, hurts so much more. but i'm trying. trying to pretend and maybe it will work ( Read more... )

my self-control is getting better. i'm not crying as much. i'm trying to accept everything. processing what has happened. and just trying to be strong. there was this little bit of hope that i got last night before sleeping. but maybe it was just my imagination. i can't stop myself from checking your myspace. trying to check if you're okay. it's ( Read more... )

my chest just wants to explode! i don't know how to make it stop. i don't know how to take this heavy weight off my chest. i'm trying. trying to think positive. i've tried to sleep, only waking up every 15 mins looking at the time. why is time going by so slow? i just want it to be morning. i want my days to go by faster. so maybe one day i can ( Read more... )

When time comes ( Read more... )

i never knew loving someone hurts so much in the end ( Read more... )

I've been crying! there are times when i'm strong. and just accept the fact that you've left me. that maybe we can still be good friends. There are so many Whys?! why did i let myself still hang on to something that i questioned at times. i knew that She was still in your heart. and maybe i had a little piece. but i've felt that she's always been ( Read more... )