My Obligatory Downbeat Entry

[phoenixfury]

Three weeks is too long - not to be away from home, necessarily, but to be away from all the things that make me me. I keep wanting to run off and experiment on some shirts, but I can't, because I'm not home. I keep wanting to do things, but I can't. I mean, we do stuff here. Some very nice things, at that. But it's enough already. My time spent

Comments

[felinephoenix]

I understand how you're feeling, I'm having the much the same problem myself...though in my case it's not so much that there's five hundred things I want to do but that it seems I'll never be able to accomplish the one thing I do want. (Which is, of course, to write.)

Though, you know, you say you don't think you can do all of these things -- but you really won't know until you try, will you? (God, I realize that sounds so patronizing. I'm sorry, I didn't mean it to.)

My advice? If you don't want to "settle" for one thing, then don't. Give them all a try. Odds are there's probably going to be one thing that you'll pick overall but that doesn't mean you have to abandon the rest.

I hope that helped...and I also hope you feel better. I know how homesickness can really screw around with your brain.

[thirteenmirrors]

Assuming you don't get hit by a car or contract a fatal disease (and those are just some of the fun things that could happen), you have 60-90 years of life. That's a lot of time to experiment. Contrary to popular belief, life does not end at 50 unless you're stuck in a sucky marriage with sucky kids. (I mean, I'm open-minded.)

Work in foreign affairs and translation; eventually become a professor in your field. Write a book about your experiences. Sing about it in a cafe. Hey, it could happen. I know I'm being light-hearted here, but your dreams may very well be achieved. And you could always sing in diners for cash during college. =)

[phoenixfury]

Firstly, my biggest problem is that I don't want to live to be 60.

Secondly, I don't want to be a professor of lanuages, I want to be a professor of English.

And I'm just not going to be able to do all these things, and I'm in a really awful, bitchtastic mood right now.

[drchc15]

All I can offer is a hug and a shoulder.

[drchc15]

Why don't you want to live to be 60?