Cue the Angst

[phoenixfury]

I can't stand this summer. I have been on a roller coaster ride of emotions that are unpleasant, nonsensical, and unstable. I have been happy but it never lasts, and then I spiral down into this depression that fades away a little bit, so I never write about it. I can't stand this anymore. Excepting atashinotenshi, I can't stand my friends and it's pathetic that

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[anonymous]

As evident in how you treat people who wanted to be friends with you (such as myself and drchc15), I have no pity for your melodramatic plight.

Steve

[cmer]

*hugs tightly* You touch me in many ways, more than you'll ever know, Rick. You touch me with your writing, writing about the best times in your life, and writing about the worst times

[anisky]

Maybe that's not a bad thing, Chard

[drchc15]

We all go through times where we feel like we can't stand to live our lives the way we do anymore. The only thing we can do then is to take positive steps to change our situation

[phoenixfury]

You're exactly right when you say it's an issue of perspective. And it is possible, perhaps, that updating in the throes of a late-night depression is not the wisest course of action. Hah.

I'm sure that there are people who like me on some level, but no friendships have been borne of such things recently. (This is mostly relating to school.) I appreciate your friendship so much more than I show it, and I'm sorry that it was these past few months we've had to meet - they've been a lot rougher than I've been making them out to be before now. To say I haven't been myself this summer is the epitome of understatements. I lost myself this summer

[thirteenmirrors]

I could change a few words (like "Florida") and post this in my journal and it would be completely accurate.

I know no one here. I never will. I'm socially dysfunctional. I'm unhappy. I hate myself.

*donates her angst to yours*

It's been a really crappy night... I was crying for a good part of it (hence why I tried to call). I'm to the point where I don't want to do anything. I don't want to go anywhere. I want to hole up in here and die.

But on the bright side, I met my roommate, and she's cool at least. Maybe something can be salvaged. (Or maybe it'll ruin itself.)

[phoenixfury]

I love yooou. I'm sorry I can't talk, but I can only use my cell in Jersey now, and after December I won't even have a cell. We'll have to talk on my house line from now on. :'(

*hugs* I hope you feel better.