of course i want to remain in your social network! i'm sorry if i haven't been around. my latest entry kindof explained alot but trust me i still want to be around, but maybe on the phone or something for now until i can actually get out and about. but you are in my thoughts most often.
you're a great friend, i'd hate to lose you to something like me being a total nutbar and being antisocial (i hope you're not mad at me for that!)
Trust me Christina you are not even close to being the problem. The very fact you made the effort to even read my LJ and furthermore post is more than most people can do. And since I am sick of wasting my time on useless fucking people who really don't give two shits and essentially become friends of convenience (meaning the only care when it benefits them) I have decided to get rid of the nonesense. Those that make the effort make the cut. It doesn't seem like too tall an order to ask people to try a little to be a friend.
Those who constantly try and demonstrate their friendship were in no danger of being cut and there are a few I know to cut outright regardless of the effort they make now (simply because they have become friends of convenience). Its the grey area I am weeding through.
I recently made a cut myself (obviously not you) they haven't even noticed so i know i made the right decision. i just realized they didn't give a shit anymore.
i just feel so bad as i feel like a friend of convienience but trust me i wish to god i could be there for you more. I will be visiting my parents in a week or so so i'll be in your area, if you don't mind hanging out you're welcome to come over and visit!!! considering i'm pratically a shut in its the best i can muster :( but i will be taking a week off in febuary which intend to spend in the north york/scarborough area so hopefully i can make up for some of my lost time then.
i feel like shit for not being more avaliable for you but i am here. i really am. *hugs*
You make far more effort than most people, simply because you don't judge me or devalue me, you simply listen when I need to be heard. I can count on one hand the number of people that are willing to do that for me...with fingers to spare. So don't worry about not always being there. You have your own life to live as I have mine and because we don't always get to see each other doesn't mean that the relationship is valued any less...just makes the time we do get so much more important
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you're a great friend, i'd hate to lose you to something like me being a total nutbar and being antisocial (i hope you're not mad at me for that!)
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Those who constantly try and demonstrate their friendship were in no danger of being cut and there are a few I know to cut outright regardless of the effort they make now (simply because they have become friends of convenience). Its the grey area I am weeding through.
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i just feel so bad as i feel like a friend of convienience but trust me i wish to god i could be there for you more. I will be visiting my parents in a week or so so i'll be in your area, if you don't mind hanging out you're welcome to come over and visit!!! considering i'm pratically a shut in its the best i can muster :( but i will be taking a week off in febuary which intend to spend in the north york/scarborough area so hopefully i can make up for some of my lost time then.
i feel like shit for not being more avaliable for you but i am here. i really am. *hugs*
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