Just had a few MORE dreams about her and my baby kittens. My babies were in danger and I had to save them. Then I was with her and even Kirk this time. Everything seemed so normal. It’s now 5:30am and I’m shaken, stressed, anxious, and sad. This is what has been a regular occurrence for me for multiple years now.

Make. It. Stop.

Just finished watching last year’s winner for Best Picture, CODA. Highly recommend.

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It’s about 3 weeks now since the last day of track work for the season. I’m definitely missing that feeling from working there this past summer. It was the most enjoyable and satisfying work I’ve had in quite a while. I was actually able to connect with other people and build a decent sense of camaraderie for the first time in who knows how long. I ( Read more... )

I may be a quiet and shy person who has a general dislike for people, but damn do I crave the idea of family.

As I write this at about 2am, I just woke up from yet another awful dream. My dream was again about the family I once had. Where I was both a husband and a father who was loved and desired. I got to see them, talk with them, and touch them. ( Read more... )

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Also my affection for Cecily Strong continues to grow. Especially after watching Schmigadoon.

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My relationship with Cedar Point has been endlessly frustrating. It’s nearly always been one-sided. With ME being the one that repeatedly gets screwed over. If this relationship were with a person, it would definitely be considered toxic. But I guess it’s my fault for continuing to try again thinking next time will be different. This latest bullet ( Read more... )

That feeling when you miss someone so incredibly much that thinking about them just makes you sick to your stomach. And it somehow hasn’t gotten better over time. Just an awful feeling to have. 🥺

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In addition to the sleep apnea and regular nightmares I’ve been suffering from for several years now, I’ve recently found myself dealing with yet another sleep issue. Right now I’ve only been able to sleep for a few hours at a time max. Then I’ll be wide awake for at least an hour or two before I’m able to fall back asleep for another few hours. It ( Read more... )