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[phunk_munki]

I try to be a good person. I care about everyone so much. Nothing ever seems to go right with what I do anymore. People either hate me, hate what I do to them, or just dont care anymore. All I want is to be happy again. Like in December. Happy like that. With everything around that made me happy. Ill never be able to have that again. That kills me

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[anonymous]

i knew u were sad 4 a long time i could sense somethn was wrong n i knew what it was about but nevr said n e thing bc i wanted u 2 talk bout it 1st u know that whatevr u wanna do 2 help urself feel bettr i will back u up 100% bc i love u n i want u 2 b happy n 2 love anothr person again im all 4 ur happiness n im srry that ive hurt u or dragged u down but know that i will always b thr 4 u n always love u no mattr what u choose 2 do n if u need help or some1 2 talk 2 u can always spend the night ;) lol but if u think time away from me will help u then ..ok ill stay outta the picture 4 a lil bit but im not leaving...u know i will nevr leave u i hope ur wounds heal n u can love and be happy again...im here 4 u
all my love,
eric

....the one who is being fought bout....

[anonymous]

I'm sorry that things have turned out like they have...if it wasn't for me...then things wouldn't have gotten to the point they are at now....i never wanted ne of this...y did he have to like me? i mean i just dont get it...i dont want to hurt ne1 but its all just whatever....it just all needs to stop....maybe i should just get out of the picture for awhile too...then maybe things can chill out....i just don't want to cause ne more problems...every1 knows thats all I have been doing....n im sorry....liz babe u know i never meant to hurt u....or ne1....its just crazy....i just want this fighting to stop please...just get along again....let's be us again...back to the happy us....when things were fun...just end this all thats all im asking...i dont ask for much...:(

[l33tl0k1]

This took a little bit of time for me to swallow. I knew it for a while and blinded myself to it that whole time. It took me an entire night to stop being mad at myself for not letting myself see it. All I can offer is being there for everyone that is going to need me through this. I cant back off. I can lie and say ill try. But it already means too much too me. I can cool down. I can just be there. But completely leaving would be too much.

Liz, my hugs are still free. I have a feeling that may come in handy throughout this.

Eric, I already made my request of you long ago.

Barbara, all I can say is that you are not the reason this happened. A catalyst maybe, but it was inevitable. Dont blame yourself and dont dissapear. At this point, losing friends is the worst possible thing that could happen.

I dont even know what will happen next, but im not scared. Ill wait as long as I need to. Ill be here for as long as you need me.

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[l33tl0k1]

nate what was ur request of me....im probably alrdy doin it without thinkn but what was it? srry i cant remembr but hopefully im doin it ::shrugs shoulders::