Worshipful entry

[pianomankev]

I said I'd do it. So I am

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[_aj__mclean_]

I remember the day when you broke down my door, yelled at me, and told me you hated me. Even in my drunken state I understood those words. Those words hurt more than anything because you were my brother, more than that, I looked up to you like a father. I hated you for doing that to me, but now I realize the hate you said you had for me was really love and that you only wanted me to get back on a better path in my life. I owe a lot to you for where I am today. I don't know where I'd be without you, and I don't want to find out.

You and the rest of the guys are the best brothers I could have. I'm thankful for you each day, and I love you. This post, even though I was expecting it, shocked me. You write such beautiful words and I'm not sure if I'm even worthy of them sometimes.

But thanks, Kev. For everything. I love you.

[pianomankev]

*sighs* I could've handled that better.. but I hated to see what was going on with you, to see it squeezing the life out of the real you and destroying the real Alex. You know why I had to say it now.. and I'm really glad you do and we've only gotten stronger because of it. I'm relieved you found the better--and the right--path. You'll never have to find out where you'd be without me because I'm not going anywhere.

I'm glad I didn't let my first impulse on the first day we met rule me.. I would've been missing out on a hell of a lot. They're beautiful because they're true.. and you're worthy of them. You deserve them.. even when you don't think that it's true. It is, everything said here.

You're welcome, you know I'm here. It's an understood thing. We're brothers. I love you too.