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[pickled_womble]

I feel like all of my decisions, actions or lack there of at the moment are all driven by fear. Fear of making a dick out of myself (which I end up doing anyway), fear of hurting someone, fear of losing someone (which also ends up happening anyway), fear of getting stuck, fear of emancipation, I don't know

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[two_little_fish]

My response to your post? To want to purge myself of my uppermost thoughts. Here goes...

fear.
fear of love
fear of sex
fear of the mainstream
fear of numbness
fear of those with the killer instinct
fear of lethargy
fear of relaxation
fear of enlightenment
fear of decisiveness
fear of money
fear of dying
fear of fear
fear of confidence
fear of certainty
fear of uncertainty
fear of one's failures
fear of one's talents
fear of happiness.

[lyds80]

my biggest fear, if you call it a fear (?) is that of the air in my baloon which is artificially implanted in my head being pushed out.

When people tell me ive done something well, they breathe air into my hidden red balloon and my thoughts/creativity/intellect get pushed and squeezed. but when people say ive done a shit job - or i know i have done a shit job - i feel dead and undermined.