Today I came home from a long day of chillin wit Ken and visiting my pops. Days like these I get mad tired and don't feel like doin anything for the rest of the day. Got home a few minutes ago and went on line. Read Tanya's profile and got a nice shout out from her. It made me smile cuz she knows the deal. It's tough at times to deal with ( Read more... )

Cuz I just took a shower and I got deodorant in my eye. I dunno, how I did it, but I did and now I'm suffering. It's snowing outside and that pretty much sucks ass. Fuck, when is it goin to be nice out with no snow to worry about? I can't take this shit anymore. I'm suppose to go to Natick with Guch and her mom to eat but I don't feelin doin shit. ( Read more... )

And my chest is full of smoke. Fuck that quitting smoking shit for now. I'm too young to give up the one thing that gives my ease. Yeah, I got mad loot this week. Got my federal tax return yesterday and my unemployment today. That's close to 900 in my pocket. But I gave my ma dukes a benji and Guch like 30. What to do with the rest? I already ( Read more... )

Didn't sleep much last night. I stayed at the hospital with my dad and we just sat there and talked. I did pass out around four only to be woken up be nurses. For some reason, my dad loves staying at hospitals. I think it's becuz the nurses adore him. All I kept hearing is how adorable he was. And then I understood.. What am I goin to do today?Cash ( Read more... )

It's goin to be a celebration bitches...I mean, in a politically correct way. Yeah right, I'm goin to celebrate my time of one year older than I was last year like a freak on a leash. Tonight, I'm goin to stay with my dad at the hospital. Since Saturday, he's been doin a lot better and is off the morphine shots. They just moved to a different floor ( Read more... )

The more my heart goes out to my dad. The tears inside build up but I cannot shed them in front of him cuz I don't want him to feel sad. I just want him to know that everything will be ok and me, my brother, and my sister love him and that we'll be right there for him. I seen my dad today and he was in bad shape. He's got pneumonia and he was ( Read more... )

And I've decided not drink this weekend. I've also decided not to drink as much as I use to. I've also decided to quit or cut down on smoking Newports. It's a decision that will extend my life span and cuz my mom asked me too. It's goin to be hard to do all of the things but I have to. Today, I'm goin to visit my dad for a couple of hours and ( Read more... )

This week has been horrible for me and my family. My dad's been sick and in the hospital. The doctor's ran test and found some shit that's serious. It's the worst feeling in the world to see my dad cooped up in bed, hooked up to iv's and not at home where he should be. I've maintained my composure and I visit him everyday and even slept there a ( Read more... )

Gotta keep my mind right and maintain. Shit sucks especially when it's happens to my family. I can't go into details cuz it makes me sad to think about it. All I can do is pray and be there for support. I'm done writing cuz I can't stop thinkin about my situation. Holla at me........... My love and my prayers go out to my dad and always will. He's ( Read more... )

This year has been goin by pretty quick in many ways. It's already February and I still haven't found a job. I dunno what I'm goin to do. I need to quit bein lazy and just go out and look. I decided last night that I'm goin to give up Newports. Yes, 7 years of smokin is, hopefully coming to an end. Reasons being, I smoke too many and spend a shit ( Read more... )