Today has definitly been much better than the past few. All the roomates and I are big dorks, we all listened to enya last night so we could get to sleep because we had insomnia. And I finally took the stupid french 212 mid-term which was so easy it's not even funny. Everyone in class was worried that he would postpone the test for the 4th time ( Read more... )

Why in god's name have I been so messed up lately? I feel like a crack addict, I'm going insane. Everything seems to be crashing down lately and I don't feel at home anymore. I'm very unsure of what's going on with my life. I guess I've never really felt like that before...because I'm thinking about transferring, it's making me so freaked out ( Read more... )

There is a hole in my chest. I can feel the invisible hand pulling my heart and toying with it. "I feel like emotionally throwing up," she says, "I feel like collapsing." But she can never throw up, she never is able to until she gets so sick that she can't take it anymore.

It is going to be so nice to go home tomarrow. I get to see my sweet ass new keyboard, it has 88 keys, a little computer screen thingy and a freaking disc drive. Plus we're going out for Japanese food with the family, so it's real food and I don't have to pay. I'm just praying to god that my parents will get me some stuff I need for school but ( Read more... )

I hate it here. I can't breathe, I can't be.

kinda realized how negative that was, i'm not down in the dumps right now...i think i just needed to write down what i was kinda freaking out about lately.

I just need to go home, and I just want to go back to high school. That's where it was safe and I nobody had to deal with so much complicated stuff alone. I want to be out of Buffalo, I need to get away, I'm scared to transfer but I'm scared to stay too. I don't even know what the fuck I want. I'm just so used to doing what's comfortable, never ( Read more... )