so i let myself think things are getting better, and i thought they were, but honestly, i just dont know anymore. things will be fine for hours or a few days on end..only to be halted by a new harsh reality. im burdened by the fact that a few people know to little and some know too much. this is going to get me into trouble and i dont want to face ( Read more... )

dont give up on me just yet. i love you. imfuckingeverythingupthatigetmyhands on. i dont want to be like this. when im with you the world just stops. i want to cry and just sink into oblivion because i cant do anything right.  i need you more than ever and i dont know what to say to you. i need to hear that im beautiful. take me in your arms and ( Read more... )

last night was so fun. granted i was way more drunk than i should have been. 

im screwing up..and it couldnt be at a worse time..

these past 2 days have consisted of me going to the doctor, and sleeping my life away..im sick... AGAIN..yesterday was much worse, i could not function..today is a lot better, but now i have a sore throat and im all congested. at first my mom and i thought it was a reaction to one of the shots i got on tuesday, but we went back to the doc and no, i ( Read more... )

no going back now.

i forgot how much i love summer.. but it would be sweet if i had my damn cell phone..no clue where its at. hopefully going to verizon tomorrow to get a new one. this is depressing..im so lost without a damn phone. anyways..it was just nice to hang out with steve (and watch his games of beer pong haha) and relax...i looooveee it. gotta go to sleep ( Read more... )

pshh..minimal studying these past few days...still pulling off good grades so far..we'll see how i did on math & english..still sick & cranky. took a 4 hour nap after finals yesterday and felt even worse. so much for giving blood tomorrow. i need food.

this summer i need to lose about 10 pounds. stepped on the scale today and wish i wouldnt have. im the heaviest ive EVER been and that is a terrible feeling. its embarrassing when i cant fit into any of my clothes anymore. im gonna try to swim a mile everyday and run at least 2 miles. im digusting.

took SATs today..i think i did well..math was really easy. i was called down to the office yesterday to figure out my schedule for next year..for first semester i have late arrival, ancient civ, calc, hon. english, hon.(AP?) gov, AP stats, and band. then 2nd semester i have international business 1st period, psych 2nd, and hon. econ 4th. im pretty ( Read more... )