Thanks Nicki!
In case anyone cares how I feel ((though I doubt they would))
ShigGs7657: i can't fall asleep! are you done with ur journal.entry?
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: yes
ShigGs7657: ohh i want to look at it
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: lol ok
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: sweet xOx missa: when you say friends come first, ne and randy have been friends longer than ive been friend with you
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: thats really nice
ShigGs7657: yeah it is....NOT!!!!!
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: im gonna lose everyone
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: :-(
ShigGs7657: not me
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: everyone else
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: you know how everyone always ganged up on me when we all used to hang out?
ShigGs7657: yeah....i won't anymore though!
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: well its like that for me with everything. if everyone else talks shyt its fine. but if i do it its a huge thing and everyone gets mad.
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: why is like that with me? what is my problem that everyone makes things hard for me?
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: :'(
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: im just like all you guys, i talk just as much shyt as the rest of you and im the one losing friends? I guess you have to have someone to blame it on. i guess its me
ShigGs7657: .....idk, but thats gay its everyones problem if tehy talk shit, and if people don't like getting shit talked about them tehn i suggest that they stop talking shit about others
ShigGs7657: well missas taking it ofensivly cause shes to blind to see randy's a jerk
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: lol
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: but seriously. its like that for me all the time. im seriously crying because i feel like such a horrible person
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: WHY THE FUCK IS IT ALWAYS ME? CAN SOMEONE PLEASE THINK OF A REASON!
ShigGs7657: idk, but ur rihgt, something goes wrong, ohh its sam, like teh night with the camp! when me you and kyr were inside and tosha and missa came and herd us, they were like yeah its sams fault, she hangs out with kyrsten and not us blah blah blah
ShigGs7657: thats fuckin retarded!
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: its always like that
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: its like that now. you talk shyt, lamark talks shyt, so does missa. but im the one they wanna give up and yell at?
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: i showed her what i was saying to her and this is what she said
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: oxPiecesMENDEDxo: i just wanted to show you that
sweet xOx missa: ok well.. i dont talk shit about.. today was my first day of EVER saying anything about you..
sweet xOx missa: you think that you can speak your mind to people but if someone else does it to you you turn it into this huge problem
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: i dont wanna start right now missa. im really sad, im crying. i dont wanna fight. try me again tomarrow, maybe ill be up for it then. :-[
sweet xOx missa: whatever sam.. you brought this all on yourself.. thats what talking shit does
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: sweet xOx missa: mayeb you'll learn from this
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: :'(
ShigGs7657: WOW!!!!! shes not talking to my sister like that!!!!!!!! fuck no! thats teh biggest load os shit!
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: i know.
ShigGs7657: >:o
ShigGs7657: (( to her))
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: lol
ShigGs7657: (( to tehm**))
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: it makes me feel so terrible but every other girl in the world is doing the same thing and not losing friends and crying over it. and im usually so good about not talking shyt. i never used to say anything about ANYONE and now all of a sidden i do a little bit and its a huge thing
ShigGs7657: i know what you mean, i think its dumb that people take all ther anger out on you!
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: i fucking hate myself right now. but i dont know why. they wont stop blaming things on me till im perfect
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: sweet xOx missa: your the one that practically made me and tosha cry that night.. you left and said you'd be back and you weere seriously inside for such a long time.. so we went inside your bathroom sat there and were atlaking about it crying.. then we heard YOU saying shit about us.. no one else was saying anything
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: omfg.....am i seriosuly that bad nicki. i mean jesus am i? because if i am you guys should all fucking get together and talk shyt about me and hate me for the rest of your lives
ShigGs7657: don't say it like i talk shit and i hate you cause i don't for either of tehm
ShigGs7657: adn no u were not talking shit that night, the only thing you said was cory and missa don't look like they would be best friends
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: ok
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: shes making me feel so terrible and i dont think i deserve that.
oxPiecesMENDEDxo: its not only me. gawd