something new..
Do we simply adapt to our life styles until we find the one we like? Why is it that when we're younger we dream of something out there and settle for something right here at an older age. Are we, as adults too scared to dream BIG? This is my first entry of my true thoughts of my world, my relationship, others relationships, and much, much more. I was inspired by the book, now tv show (also on dvds), Sex and the City. Carrie B. is a writer for a newspaper and has a column of such sort. It's a new year and I'm determine to find the answers to all my questions, like why do girls feel the need to stop everything just for their boyfriend? Can't we simply have a girls night out without it becoming something huge. How come when you're first in a relationship, you have all the trust in the world and slowly as the months past by you worry more. Aren't you suppose to gain trust, not loose it? This coming Sunday will make my boyfriend and I eight months. We didn't get to spend New Years together because of his job. Seems like that's all he does and I get put into his schedule when allowed. Do guys not feel the need to drop everything for the one that they love or have girls just adapt to their lover's life? I feel the need that I have to stay home or I'm going to miss his seven o'clock break call. Why don't I want to venture out anymore? Could it be that I am in love or that I just simply can't stand another heartbreak. I never saw it like that before. Why the change? Am I just settling for something here and now. Should I wait on something else, when I have a "sure thing"? It seems like the longer the relationship, the more work that has to go into it. Shouldn't it be that the longer the relationship, the less work that needs to go into it? I always thought of me as the one without the relationship, longing for one though.. I never dreamed I would actually find someone who would actually stick around for more than a month. Is this truly my great love or do I have another one out there? As I look at my promise ring he placed on my hand I wonder, what is he really promising? And does he mean every last one down to the "I promise no one will ever look as beautiful as you do." I believe having a promise ring brings relationships more problems because you put your guy up on a petal-stool and won't bring him down until he does the dirty. I've seen perfect relationships go wrong shortly after a one year and a promise ring or a Christmas and a promise ring. All I'm saying is, do you really believe every promise no matter what or are you just blinded by the bling?
sarah*beth