Hmm today was Fun

well me and holli had fun today haha

I didnt go to 2nd period i went andhung outin mrs. millers room that was FuN

Then at lunch Max and james came and gave us mc donalds.. that was yummy. i felt really bad tho cause i said i would give them an extra 5 dollars.. oh well ill just give it to them next time i see them.

Then in ( Read more... )

Today was ok .. cant really complain ( Read more... )

Hmm today was a good school day.

Then after school i went and regot my permit cause i had lost mine and then later on spenser was supposed to come over and hang out but ed got to him first and so he went and picked him up so like the whole night was spent with eddie.. haha how pathetic im jealous of eddie.yeah whatever im done with trying to ( Read more... )

I hate that i make everything so much worse then it should be

I hate that im a stupid fucking bitch

I hate that i can just let you walk away from me without u knowing how much i really want you to stay.

I hate what i have turned into

I hate that i hate me :(

I hate that im turning all stupid and emo and depressed again.

I hate that i love you , ( Read more... )

Just because i smile and laugh doesnt mean im happy.
Just because i talk like everything is good. doesnt mean it is.
Just because i look at you and you cant even see how badly im hurting inside

Hmm so yesterday was a pretty good day =]

I got home from Jess's and then went to annas and helped her clean for a little bit and then anna went to work and her mom dropped me off at home and then richard picked me up and we went to grants house and watched w.o a paddle and then i hung out with lindsey then eddie came and picked me and lindsey up ( Read more... )

Tonight was fun =]

First ed picked me up and we went and got spenser and chelsea then we met up with manda n jess and then and we watched are we there yet. it was a good movie lol. Then Ed and chelsea left and anna came =] and then anna almost got in a fight with liz and trisha but then we were like all talking and nothing happened like usual.. ( Read more... )

Hmmmmm

so yeah spenser just left.. it was a cute night... lol

hmm i dont kno whats wrong with me.. lol seriously.. i love this boy yet i like flench when he touches me or something.. i think im just scared to be hurt by him.. and deep down in the back of my head i think that might be why i made that stupid mistake on sunday.. seriously.. like ( Read more... )

Today was an awesome dayyyyy

school was alright.. spenser mad it awesome.. like usual.... haha that little life saver had to leave early cause he had to go get his award.... hahahahaha oh yeah it was rly funny in 6th period.. kelsey was like hey sam u have something on ur eyelid area let me get it for u and hes all " ok thanks!" an then she like ( Read more... )

Well.. today WAS a good day.

i dont know whats wrong with me.. i cant stop crying.. and i cant stop thinking.. and i think spenser gave me this thing he has where he always thinks about everything to every last bit of anything.. and i just cant stop thinking. and i hate myself so much right now.. i think im begining to become depressed again like ( Read more... )