Comments | pieddor: Passing it off like some kind of king....you don't know peace until you've had suffering.

pieddor

Passing it off like some kind of king....you don't know peace until you've had suffering.

Dec 04, 2006 22:29

There is this girl I know, and have known for some years now. At a time I would say that we were good friends and talked a lot. It had become more but that obviously wasn't meant to be, as it isn't now. The point is, a year or so after, we started talking again and all seemed fine. I never stopped thinking about her. A strong emotion could be ( Read more... )

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pammysue December 10 2006, 06:21:36 UTC

Believe it or not you are a wonderful man and she doesn't know what she is missing. However when that truly special someone comes into your life you will be amazed at how it feels. There was a reason for that friendship all though we may not see it now. And you never know sometimes when the timing isn't right, somewhere down the road you cross paths again and things may be completely different.

I LOVE YOU

hello_nasty December 11 2006, 05:14:48 UTC

As far as a disorder goes, I know it's hard to look back on the past now that you are happier now and feel remorse for how you acted, but how you handled the disorder back then is nothing to feel sad about. You know a lot more about it now than you did then, I don't think she would hold your feelings against you now for how you handled a hard situation in the past. It's not your fault that you felt that way, I think it's reasonable anyone would when dealing with something so difficult. I hope that what I'm typing gets taken in the right way, I just mean to say I don't want you to be so hard on yourself, for feeling like you did ( ... )

Tool, Nine Inch Nails, Pink Floyd, GY! BE, The Mars Volta, Mastodon, the list goes on.... pieddor December 12 2006, 08:03:41 UTC

I didn't say that it was a problem. Just that I talked about it in the letter. As in, I was being pretty personal and I didn't get a fucking response. That was my point. I put myself out there, and nothing time and time again. Fuck it. I'm done.

I know that most people I hang out with aren't "paired off" but that isn't the issue here. It's not that I feel left out, it just feels like something is missing. I am glad I have the friends I do, but I'm not in love with any of my friends. Thankfully probably, but it's still the case.