Somewhat I realize that when I've been dating Natali, I was becoming her dream man. I sacrificed everything, just to become that. Is that right? Of course no, although a love like that is kind of nice. Looking back, I realize that Natali didnt appreciate me for what I am, didnt believe in me, jumped into conclusions. I easily forgave her all that. ( Read more... )

....I succeed because of each of You.....)

A spark to live, the flame within, the will to win, the passion. I aint giving up, even after my last breath. Come bite a peace of me. I survive and the kid in me stays too. I'm old enough to cherish that ( Read more... )

Yesterday I woke up to my eyes real sprakly. Sometimes you wake up to like what you see in the mirror. I have a new and useful habit. Get out of house and into the park or a city, even before breakfast sometimes. Really nice ( Read more... )

i open and close the post dialog again and again. its tough to live without someone so close, but one has to look into the future. all eggs into one basket. silly. moving on is something of a struggle too. a new person, a new life. said so easy and quick. how is it done? i thought about it and came to the conclusion that its not worth thinking ( Read more... )

i've seen You on facebook, it was your page, Natali. You picked a cover song for Dillemma 'Last One' (dont try to look it up, its local r'n'b thing). You dont know, and since you never read my journal and I'm sure of this one, that it was my theme song, every time you'd try to leave me. It's just such a beautiful song, and its words. Now you know ( Read more... )

the spring is so nice, yesterday, hang out by the house with a friend till 4am, t'was beautful, sometime around 4 the bird songs came on, not mentioning the sounds of the city. I really found some peace there, for once in a week's time maybe. in that moment I knew that from then on, I will sleep well tonight and I finally made it to where i wanted ( Read more... )

I've thought about my dream of two girls. Particularly I wanted to know, why did I remember the face of the other girl. I think I found an answer. See, she looked at me once, but that look it wasnt not just her, I think it was that of all women. It was interesting, overwhelming, calm. The other girl though, I got to know her, the way she was, her ( Read more... )

i got to travel a bit recently, in an overnight train. there i dreamed at night of waking up on the same train and two girl were in our compartment. Both liked me, but one I got acquainted with earlier and started flirting. I didnt want to upset her, so I carried on. It felt so nice to hold hands and walk in the spring setting of around my home. I ( Read more... )

When I go back to my older ways, I find it amazing how much strenth does my life require. It is primarily a matter of choices that I make, You see everything is good when in harmony, and I didnt follow this principle back in the day when I was giving it all away. It was unwise. I realized in time that carrying an everyday load for others is not ( Read more... )