I remember the way you looked at me, when you said you cought that inspiration, when you said you understand his motivations and for some unkonwn reason you felt something ( Read more... )

i found my solution: I Accept and Love You for What You Do, because You Need It
all is forgiven
thanks AllMighty

sometimes I ask myself, what have I dont to end up like this? it makes me want to scream, but it is all so simple. I really thought that I could live without her. That is why I let her distance. I thought I can. And I was right. But after it all worked out for me, I realized that its not what I want. Then the flashing images came and I am head over ( Read more... )

i dont want another woman, i love her literally even when she is literally screaming my way. the moment I truly learned to live without her, I realize that I want her more than anything in my life. i calm myself down thinking the destiny you cant avoid, but what if i could have done anything different, what if i could keep her by myside. On the ( Read more... )

At times the pain from your leave gets into me and I want to let it loose by slitting my skin on the forearms. Its the pain, from loosing the one you love, the one you hold so dear, the one you're true to. Deep inside I know, I´ll get through this, because its who I am. But other times its tearing me to pieces, I know there's only two of us, such ( Read more... )

The day of February 29 was comparable to gray matter. There was certain stillness and intensity in the gray sky and I was reaching into my pocket for a ´brain´ metaphor to describe it. Of course, my description cant be exhaustive, but i´m not trying to be. Its feelings. Lately I´ve been asking myself, why is it that subconscious is so powerful and ( Read more... )

What the night sees ( Read more... )

And I say you all know this. And I say life's like this, but when the curtain falls and there's no more show, what do you do then, hun? Into the theatre you came with a date, but trying to leave with the prime actor, forgetting hopefully (!) it was Bruce Willis sitting next to you. And when that curtain falls, the raindrops banging on the deserted ( Read more... )

Washing dishes...got a sudden urge for her to hug me...from behind...a dream like this is worth living for. I always meditate while doing dishes. Mom's like 'arent you tired of dishes everyday'. I go 'of course no'. Washing them is like fe feeling a desert's worth of sand seep thru your fingers. Music in my home...so happy to be here all along. So ( Read more... )

So here it is, Sunday. Sunday night and I'm in the big city. It somehow was a relatively quick and quite a pleasant trip. Tomorrow I have a meeting. And the most important thing about a meeting is an attitude. I'm getting there ( Read more... )