Coherentific

[piggybankcowboy]

 I'm going to warn you ahead of time.  After roughly four glasses of whiskey, an entire pack of cigarettes, and an extremely off-putting conversation (both text and phone), I am about to sound bat-shit crazy.  We're all just lucky I didn't add the five valium I have sitting in front of me to the mix.  God damn.  What a show

Comments

[nib]

good for you. some may not agree but osometimes people need a harsh reality check to knock them off their imaginary high horse. hopefully this ends a chapter in your book.

[piggybankcowboy]

Maybe. I don't really like that I'm capable of doing that to somebody, though. It really makes me feel like the exact opposite of good, which I don't like. It's almost as if I have developed the ability to cause pain by experiencing pain as a defense mechanism, and to me, that makes me just as fucking nuts as the person I'm hurting.

[piggybankcowboy]

My god, you should read the texts sometime. I responded as diplomatically as possible, maintaining a sense of balance the whole time. But then my phone started ringing, again and again and again. It was at that point that the things I hate about myself took over.