Shine with all the untold...

Oct 17, 2009 04:39

I can't recall the last time I felt this fulfilled. I certainly haven't been this happy in a long time, either ( Read more... )

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thewishfire October 17 2009, 11:52:16 UTC
Sensei.... I... I still keep thinking I should call you and Roxis -sama, too. I mean, what you see in me... I see in you, too....

It's so magnificent to see you thinking this way.... And to feel it, too. I'd love you even if you were unsure about these things, you know that, but that you're really coming to see the world this way too is such gratification for me.... I'm so glad for your students, too, who'll surely feel the renewed sense of purpose and understanding coming from you... I'm glad for everyone who meets you, feeling like this.... Just one person giving off so much light... it can spread so far....

I wish Sulpher had been more thankful for the bird. He really chased it about a bit.

And... um, you mean this...? I was wondering what you'd think if you found it.... But lately... I've been worried a bit less about that... I think... I just kind of started to feel more like you'd understand. I'm glad I was right ( ... )

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pillarofruin October 17 2009, 13:06:46 UTC
Then how am I to satisfy my desire to elevate you above me? Yet I do know the feeling...

I'm so glad I can make you happy. Your happiness is so lovely to witness, not just because you shine so powerfully with it, not even just because I feel it reflected in my heart, but because it's so pure, so deep-down true. And for such kind and generous reasons, though you can't really help that anyway.

And yes... I meant that. I do understand. I do remember, now, why I'm here... at Al-Revis, or here at all.

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thewishfire October 17 2009, 13:13:11 UTC
W-well, if it really makes you happier to call me that than to hear it said of you, then I guess it's okay....

I'm just so glad. When you're at your best, you shine so much.... What the others said, about you being a great teacher... it's really true. And I don't just say that because I'm your Mana.... There's so much in there that you know, that you really yearn to express and do express, that's so right, and even if it was clouded over for a little while, it was still there in your heart... you were still beautiful.... You just needed the clouds to part for you, and they did....

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pillarofruin October 17 2009, 13:25:57 UTC
Whatever you do makes me happy; although I don't know how to give to you except by letting you grant my own wishes, my wish right now is just to give... I cannot speak for Roxis at all, though. I suspect he'd be flattered.

I do my best. I-- I wish I knew how to take this compliment less plainly than saying thank you. To have one such as you say that of me is extraordinary, and I'm aware of it... Thank you.

I really was clouded, wasn't I? To think you were a terrible thing, to try to destroy what you are... As if you weren't what we spend our lives in pursuit of becoming.

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justicewearsred October 17 2009, 11:56:05 UTC
Heh, that could almost be our new slogan for the school. "Al-Revis: There isn't any such thing as unhappiness around here." How about it? ...I mean, it's really true, or at least, it should be, if we're doing things right. That's what we've got to offer the next generation, after all. The promise of lives without unhappiness, without suffering, without grief.

It's good to see you doing this well, sensei. I had a suspicion you'd find yourself in a much better position once Vayne got through to you, but I worried the doubt that had assailed you would linger for a while longer. You really are strong; stronger than you give yourself credit for.

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pillarofruin October 17 2009, 13:03:26 UTC
It is what we've got to offer the next generation, yes. I personally think it's a better promise than any other we could possibly give... When I've been up here for a long time, I sometimes wonder why everyone out in the world doesn't go to school for alchemy. Don't they want to have this, too? Can it really be that we've done such a poor job of explaining it to them that they truly don't recognise what we're offering?

Even some of the students... I thought when I first met you that you didn't get it, but now I think you always have understood. You just disguise it from everyone's sight, and it takes time to see through your double bluff. But there are some freshmen who walk through these doors not quite understanding what they've signed up to do, and even if they do turn out to be well-suited, they don't know what they're aiming at. They sit through orientation lectures and they hear the language, and yet it escapes them what it really means to do alchemy. Our best efforts to be explicit remain sometimes unclear, even to those who ( ... )

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exceedinglife October 17 2009, 13:09:03 UTC
It is such a shame.... It's like... we have something to say that relates to everyone, yet it seems like the words it takes to get each of them to understand it are so different.... There doesn't seem to be any one way of saying it that really hits everyone at their heart. I guess we're just all such varied expressions of the universe... and that's beautiful in a way, because it means it's a diverse place, but it makes sharing it with people really hard.

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