nothing but sound

[pilot_light_out]

my chance for happiness is not succeeding, I feel like a fraud , I feel there is no where to go and no way to fix it. ill have to go about my day being asked how are you? and ill have to smile and say good! because Im getting paid to do that. and I cant fake it with my friends so ill have to explain myself but I cant. I don't know what to say. im

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[david_feuer]

You're depressed. Depression is a disease, not some sort of moral failure. Have you tried the whole therapy thing? That works for some people. The drugs work for some people. Getting more exercise works for some people....

[pilot_light_out]

I wouldn't say they don't work, but I never believed in using antidepressants. I was prescribed them in high school but I never took them. I do believe depression is (usually) a medical dilemma, but I just feel like the healing should come from within. I don't know. plus I hate pills and those types of drugs. I don't trust them. im not suicidal, so its not entirely necessary. im just dreary. bored with repetitive normalcy. bitchy. and I think writing about sadness brings out more of my creativity. that's just me.

the exercise advice is good, that usually helps. most of the things that help my mood are only temporary though. but everything in life is temporary. amen.

thank you for your reply.

[90wallflowers]

fuck this is me in a nutshell. can we meet? seriously