justin's all mad at me and shit. i dunno i guess me and lars with our hide in seek were making him mad. honestly though its like hes accusing me of being a little fucking kid. but whatever if he wants to get his panties in a wad over it i won't stop him. i dunno he just caught me at a bad time i guess. i've been in horrible moods lately and for ( Read more... )

i have been taking your advice. and i am trying to chose my feelings for the right moment but so far its got me feeling really weird at all the wrong times. or maybe i feel normal. i dunno what it is. justin r. emailed me today and was telling me how he wants to come up and see me some time soon. i have had my doubts about it though. for many a ( Read more... )

you know sometimes when badd things happen to people they start to get use to it and then the bad stuff no longer has the same sad depressed feeling it use to. i'm not depressed. but i couldn't untill just now describe how i was feeling. but i can now place a name on what i feel. nothing. i am being deprived of lifes emotions. i mean yeah i am sad ( Read more... )

first eric, chuck in the hospital, now chad. you know i kinda wish i would of dated chad when he was uh... lets just put it nicely by saying liked me a whole lot. if i would of known this would of happened to him i should of just gone out with him and atleast like fulfill his goal of trying to be with me. even though i always thought chad was kinda ( Read more... )

today has sucked ass. i need a routine for that fucking half hour break instead of just walking trying to hide from certian people. and running the mintue i see them. so anyways somebody told me that justin thought that me, jeanette, and catherine were the 3 hottest girls he knows. where did this information come from? anybody know? i trust the ( Read more... )

yeah so first week is done. i hate having a boyfriend. well i atleast hate my boyfriend. when are the great guys that will treat me great going to come around? that kid david i like so much doesn't even know i exsist. lars i still think your brother is hot but guess what he likes rachel's sister becky. which i think is kinda funny in a cute way. ( Read more... )

yes so it is the 3rd day of school and i already am getting bored. i got an email from my friend justin and my friend hunter replied to my post and it was so sweet. i really feel missed. but don't worry i plan on going home soon, guys. but anyways a class just came into the library and they are about to kick me off my computer. bastards!!!!!!!!

kim kim kim. thats what my summer has been oh yeah and gareth gareth and more of gareth. don't hate bitches! yeah just updating for all of my adoring fans! haha don't deny me . oh yes i have got sad news. rick james died bitch! i'm out

so yeah i helped lars with her hair on friday. it turned out awesome. my socks were rocked off it was so pretty. wow we only have 4 more days. in houston i would of been out of school a month ago. kyle can't drive to school this week. and i hate the fact that i am getting here oh so late and i have no place to chill during 3rd period. i woke up ( Read more... )

today has been shitty. just like yesterday. wow. anyways hunter i shall take your advice. lars i think we should do your hair today. thanks to those of you who like my hair