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ten years at sea.
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i have nothing driving me in life at the moment, and i guess it is my fault. i am seeing everyone, even me differently. i forgive tyler. i sit and i see him as a person, not that boy who i loved for so long and who hurt me. nobody seems to really understand why i spend time with him like nothing ever happened. i get it. he gets it. it works for me ( Read more... ) -
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when i have children i fear that they are going to dread me as much as i have come to dread my own parents. Sitting at school wishing it would last forever so i wouldn't have to go home, loving tuesdays because i knew my dad would be playing basketball and not at home. It would kill me to hear the things some children say about their parents come ( Read more... ) -
solitude.
Everything happens for a reason. I cannot possibly stress that enough. Right now andres is in scotland having a wonderful time and he will not be home until the 13th. So i sit and i think, because i usually speak to him on and off all day. Now i feel kind of empty, like something is missing. What i'm trying to get at is that him going on this trip ( Read more... ) -
with tired eyes, tired minds, tired souls...we slept.
the most alive i have felt in a while came by getting lost at midnight with someone who enjoyed it as much as i did. Never have i heard of feeling at ease laying next to someone you've only seen a handful of times, and not wanting it to end. But thats how it was, thats how it always seems to be. I am very lucky to had found him when i did. Found ( Read more... ) -
no clue.
...september never stays this cold where i come from and you know i'm not one for complaining....and i love the way you grow excuses on the tip of your tongue as i slowly fall apart.... This wont mean a thing tomorrow. -
review.
somehow i've found myself spending time with the one guy who shaped me and my views on men forever, yes, tyler. He has grown in some cases but when it comes to dating he is still in the freshmen year mindset: a girl likes me, i'll date her. I can give him advice and thats it. Four years of knowing someone and you have them figured out. Boring not ( Read more... ) -
first breath after a coma.
i think at my age friendships are meant to mold you into what you want (or think you want) to be. You surround yourself with people who have qualities that you admire. What i'm trying to say is that i admire everything about you just about, and to be such a close friend of yours is so meaningful to me. Out morals reflect one anothers for the most ( Read more... ) -
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Dear Andres,
I wrote you this long letter about how much you mean to me and how grateful i was to have you in my life. but like i just told you, now that i am sitting here and reading it over, i see how jumbled it is. So i am going to make this short and sweet ( Read more... )