To my best friend

[pinch_a_penny]

I am sorry that this has happen too us again I am sorry that you are hurt I am sorry that he left & i am sorry you are feeling hurt but I love you and as much as right now you think i dont I do as much as you think Ia m every name in the book I still love you nothign is going too change the way I feel towards you not a fight or arguemnt nor a guy

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[6_wheels]

i wanna hate you.
i do.
but for some reason i dont even care.
okay yes i do care becasue of what i did with him,
and i know you sit there telling nikki,
that out of respect i shouldnt of done that , well,
sorry but i did. and if it was my choice to tell myself who i did and didnt like i'd tell myself i dont like him, but i cant.
and after hearing what he says about you, then i would
of never thought you guys would ever hook back up.
or anything. and when i started likeing him, i knew what i was
getting myself into but I chose to take the risk.
it's half my fault , i should of laid off .
but you know that if you were in my position you would of done the exact same thing and you cant say you wouldnt because you would.
and if i wouldnt of done what i did with him, it'd be alot easier to just forget about him, but you know i cant, and i dont regret what i did with him not one bit.
im just pissed off right now.
give me some time, things will get back to normal.

[pinch_a_penny]

ashley tho I was in your postion I was with the whole will thing you cared about him & i got with him you flipped out but ash I still didnt get with him. I no in some way's it's diffent but in soem way's it's the same. Understand how I feel what postion I am in I no it's half my fault too mis communcation I should have told you but really would it have changed anythign personally no it wouldnt have. I have too give it time to for us too be normal again to I unserstand how you feel & I am sorry, but dont put it all on me. Every day I wish you hadnt done what you did with him because as much as i love you Iw ant as well hate you for doing that but ashley I cant you are just my sunshine you make me smile when I am down even if your the one killing me inside. I hope we work threw this & figure away too coem tooa solution. I love you ash I do