looking towards the future

[pink_compulsive]

So It's been ages since I wrote anything in my journal. I mostly stopped writing after I switched to myspace simply because I felt like nobody was reading what I wrote, or that nobody cared. Either way it just felt like I was wasting my time, so I stopped

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Congrats!

[laughingnahga]

I've been keeping up with you on MySpace. I hope you keep posting here as well though. Myspace seems to be about nothing more amassing a collection IMO.
At first I didn't know why you were going to asia but then when you mentioned surgery and feeling complete I sort of put 1 and 1 together.
Its great to know that your experience went so well.

My only reservation though is that frankly I think your chest was just fine the way it was...but then again this is coming from come one with inferior non bionic breasts that are suseptible to gravity.

I hope that the rest of the healing process goes well and that you make it back to the States safe and sound.

P.S. I'm dying to see photos of your new and improved self as soon as you're completely healed up.

pics

[pink_compulsive]

as soon as I can get my pics uploaded from my phone, you'll see it all :)

I have everything from the really gory pics to the really nice healed pics. I'm healing remarkably fast, according to the clinic staff, although truthfully I'm in constant, constant, brutal pain.

I hurt in places I never knew existed, in ways I can't even describe. simply sitting down is a real chore. but it's totally awesome. everything "fits".

I'm so happy :)

Re: Congrats!

[lilybutterland]

i heard she got three of them ....

(!!!)

silly bod mod communitee...

livejournal is boiling pot of cranberries

[pink_compulsive]

yeah, it's the exact opposite. all my IRL friends post on myspace and trade email through it, so it's how me and my social network keep in contact these days. Livejournal just became like, a big chore.

I'm not going to kill it, but I think I'm going to renovate it when I get home.

Re: livejournal is boiling pot of cranberries

[pink_compulsive]

word. I should update it soon. I've just spent the past 2 days being totally imobile from he chest down, bleeding all over everything I own, and playing he sims 2.

not quite productive, but somewhat enjoyable :)

[lilybutterland]

yay !!!

i was just starting to worry about you.

at the rate i'm saving money, working demolittion and squatting, i should have cash by the middle of fall....

i think i'm gonna hitchhike to australia to save me some air fair.

....

so dont delte yer resource list yet.

and dont worry, i'm sure ther'll be something new to complain about... there always is.

and holy shit yay !!!!!

stuff you should know about thailand.

[pink_compulsive]

that's good news. chica. Since I now have firsthand info, I can totally re-write that resource list with even more options. It's very very very easy to live cheaply here. the avg. thai survives off of $250 USD a month.

although frankly, your dumpstering skills will not serve you well here, because the trash is seriously just like, chemical swamp waste. it's seriously beyond inedible. like the kind of trash that will probably kill you.

I'll keep you up to date. in the meantime don't go do something retarded like getting yourself killed.

[prettylilmess]

I haven't been using my journal much myself or keeping up much but I've kept an eye out for a couple of people, you being one. I'd very much thought about you and kept meaning to write but it's been difficult for me to even want to communicate with anyone and most of it on my end is scaryhellhorrible so I'm sooo happy that you've managed this. Yay

[pink_compulsive]

I a heartbeat, Chica.

I haven't been doing much but working within my own shitty life trying to set things straight, so here went pretty unkempt, collecting mildew an taking up space. It's been no cakewalk for me either, although, you having told me of your previous situation, I still worry quite a bit.

i've still got some shit to wallow in and work out, but I'm not the type of person to let it get me down for too long. I've managed to run into some pretty extraordinary people while I've been out here, people that really brought my world view together, helped me deal with my demons. I genuinely think I'll be ok because I WANT to get over this shit, heh. no pitty parties hre.

[prettylilmess]

Nah, I can see that you're chasing your demons. It's not an overnight battle I know. You *sound* different even. In a good way. I know you've fought your way to where you are, I recognize a fellow warrior. We kinda hafta be at least in spirit.
Y know, you're not the first I've heard say that folks they met in Thailand had a profound impact on them. And you're not one I would condecend to to offer pity. That's not for you or for me for that matter. Doesn't indicate a lack of empathy or feeling, just that some of us don't want pity and I'm pretty sure you are among those.

Funny, was just talking about that very thing with a friend earlier tonight.

[pink_compulsive]

it's really crazy. it's so many different types of people from so many different circumstances and walks of life. you have the 16 year old swedish girl and her mom, the 28 year old dyke and her girlfriend, the 22 year old chinese girl from san francisco with here parents, the 65 year old german woman, the 45 year old british woman , the crazy(but beautiful) black girl and her ultra gay husband, the spanish girl who speaks no english, the oodles of thai women who are ultra femme despite gravely male voices, etc

[lilybutterland]

oh pinky, my pinky !!!

miss alyssa really for sure fell right in to the center of the earth and melted in to the earths core and now she plays multi player on line games from the earths own magnetic field.

she took a few of my sketchbooks wif her but like wutever... oh pinky !! we could work out a deal were i could do favours for you here on earth.

how hard is it to stalk someone on warcraft ?? i got a pentium 1 toshiba... maybe i can run mini warcraft !!! My charector is something i gonna dash off in microsoft paint. her name is 8-bit sally