ugh Amanda I am so sorry to read about the porn :( I can't imagine how horrible that must feel to see that and then for him to tell you that. Guys don't understand how hard it is to stay in shape when they're naturally lean. Maybe you should take some time to focus on yourself while your down here. Going to a counselor is probably a good idea. I think about it all the time, but for some reason I never take the initiative to find someone and make an appt. idk why but reading what you wrote reminds me of times when I know I have issues and need to talk to someone, so that's why I encourage you to. I guess in a way I'm also encouraging myself
thanks for understanding. it is hard. we are actually doing a little better since then. he apologized. its just annoying. i know some girls don't care if their guy watches porn and that's fine that's their decision, but to me its disgusting and like, degrading i guess. it makes me feel like he's not getting what he needs from me so he gets it from there.. idk. i mean of course i would not rather him be out actually cheating on me, but it doesn't mean i'm gonna be ok with the porn either. it's just gross.
and yes the counseling is something im definitely going to try to get into while im home. i just realized that there's something about me that for some reason won't let me be happy alot of times, even when i want to. it's hard to explain. but i hope i can find something that will take tricare, which im kinda doubting will be easy to find.
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I can't imagine how horrible that must feel to see that and then for him to tell you that. Guys don't understand how hard it is to stay in shape when they're naturally lean.
Maybe you should take some time to focus on yourself while your down here. Going to a counselor is probably a good idea.
I think about it all the time, but for some reason I never take the initiative to find someone and make an appt. idk why but reading what you wrote reminds me of times when I know I have issues and need to talk to someone, so that's why I encourage you to. I guess in a way I'm also encouraging myself
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and yes the counseling is something im definitely going to try to get into while im home. i just realized that there's something about me that for some reason won't let me be happy alot of times, even when i want to. it's hard to explain. but i hope i can find something that will take tricare, which im kinda doubting will be easy to find.
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