I was thinking today...maybe I was wrong, maybe I did it just a little bit to win. Maybe I should have known it would hurt you. I don't think I deserved the reaction I got but that just made it harder to walk away, even when I knew we were spinning our wheels. I couldn't give you the satisfaction of making my decisions for me. But maybe I could ( Read more... )

Maybe I just need to learn to accept that life isn't going to be what I expected. That I can't be a certain way just because that's how I always envisioned it being. That sometimes life is what is it is and you just have to roll with it...it's so hard for me though because it's very difficult for me to wait for things to happen. I want to change ( Read more... )

I am so f'ing bored with life lately. And the problem is not that there is nothing to do (unfortunately) but that i'm sooo sick of what i am doing, what i have to do. Even beyond the school stuff it's exhausting and just getting really monotonous and predictable. I'm sick of waiting for something to happen, someone to happen. I'M SO RESTLESS I'M ( Read more... )

whoaaaa...didn't remember posting THAT last night, sorry to the 2-3 people who read this.:)

it's tiems' like thse that wi wishj they're were someone that mattered and people that didn't just assume things about youa and poeple that didn't just care baout certian things people don't ever get to know me they just want what they see an dit's soo differnt than that and nobody understands and since i've had way too mucha to drink and just ( Read more... )

A change is coming ( Read more... )

You know what I hate--roadkill.
I hit a bunny yesterday and cried for 20 minutes.
You know what I also hate, people who think it's funny to cream small animals while driving.
I hope those fuckers drive off the road.
It has not been a good day.

I finally found a job...well I had a job...working as a secretary/receptionist at Restanio Bunburry but that job, although it pays well, can only give me a night or two a week and one weekend a month. I just got hired at Boston's--a gourmet pizza and italian restaurant with a sports bar. I've started training as a host there and eventually I will ( Read more... )

It's over. And as much as it's an end that I needed to come, it's a beginning I'm sad to see go. I can never be a college freshman again and I'll never be in room 405B again surrounded by the places and things that once felt like summer camp and have now become home. Move in day, as nightmarish as it was, seems like yesterday. I still need to ( Read more... )

"...Still sometimes we have to see for ourselves. We have to make our own mistakes. We have to learn our own lessons. We have to sweep today's possibility under tomorrow's rug until we can't anymore. Until we finally understand for ourselves what Benjamin Franklin really meant. That knowing is better than wondering, that waking is better than ( Read more... )