i just realized that all i've ever really had from guys or just people in general

are just words.

all i have to keep me going are plain and simple (confusing and twisted) words.

in some cases i love that, because you know me,
 i'm a writer. that's what i deal with, those silly words.

but at the same time... there are other things in life 
that can be ( Read more... )

once again,
i've been thrown off course by myself.

here comes the "blarghness".
cheers.

i can't wait to start all over,
but im actually going to miss this.

im still not in the mood to update pictures and talk that much.
but things are going great,
i just hate getting so sad about new changes,
and leaving so many people...

this week's all about typing up a ( Read more... )

i loved my trip to toronto. heres some pictures :)

so kayla, kelly, my mom and i decided to go to toronto for a day.

preeeettyyyy.

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i feel like i cant let myself have enough happiness.
feeding on pain.

what do you do when everything feels rejected?

(i cant spend these nights upset anymore,
and every morning i vow not to,
and every night i find myself upset for a reason
i shouldn't have gotten involved with.)why. why. why ( Read more... )

there's something about looking out of my window
and seeing hundreds of fireflies light up my yard.
in a better sense, 
it was peaceful yet chaotic but it seemed just right.
they fly all over, only blinking their light,
running into each other and just being in plain darkness.
but for a split second, everything in their world can be lit up.
i wish that ( Read more... )

do you not even SEE me,
 HEAR me, 
SCREAMING 
in front of your face?!

honestly, where is this going?

I GOT INTO

RYERSON.

HOLY FUCK,

I AM SO SCARED

AND SO FUCKING

HAPPY!!

the ultimate

Unspoken entity
resolves unbound.
Night life starts,
you turn around.
Merciless promises,
and wishes under the bed;
the monster crept upon you and said,
"Look through the glass at
what you might see,
your other half lives,
but don't let it be."
Trembles and terrors,
Hope gives in.
What you can't see is
The Ultimate Sin.

She tucks a strand of her shiny dark majestic mane
Behind her ear and feels mundane
He sits and watches her from afar
Pines for love, pines on par.
And if she was to notice him,
The bright light in her face might dim.
And if he admits how much he wants her,
"Maybe one day we'd be infamous lovers."
And as she lives, and as he dreams,
She walks by and his ( Read more... )

things are good lately.
i got my prom dress
i have things in mind
limo is payed for
college process is almost over
relationships are alright
weather is getting better
etc.

friday im going to arizona till thursday.
so i probably wont have time to update tomorrow, but maybe ill try.

but for now -- heres a picture entry on the people that i miss. 
enjoy, you're ( Read more... )