[oneshot:He the boyfriend of my sweet boy friend]
Title: He, the boyfriend of my sweet boy friend
Author: pink_stitchy
Pairing: Yamajima, YutoChii
Rating: PG-13
Beta: koigaii
Summary: Yamada Ryosuke is in love with his best friend boyfriend, what would happen if Yamada get a chance to spend a whole day with the boy his heart logging for?...
The only thing that Yamada Ryosuke wished he could do right now is to turn back the time. Turn back to 10 hours before, so that he can take back all the words that put him into this current situation. Seriously, he can’t believe that he would say “yes” to Chinen when he asked him to do this in their phone conservation last night.
“Moshi moshi Yama-Chan”Chinen voice sound desperate on the phone line.
“Moshi moshi Chii. What’s up?’ Yamada sounded half awake when he picked up Chinen’s call.
“Yama-Chan gomen ne~~ Did I wake you up?” Chinen asked guiltily.
“Urmm it’s okay. What’s the matter Chii?” Yamada asked curiously because it really rare for Chinen to called him in the middle of night.
“Ano ne Yama-Chan, I got a problem and you are the only person that can help me out right now”
“What is it?” Yamada start to worry after heard how serious Chinen sound right now.
“Tomorrow my cousin, Ryu-Chan is coming to Tokyo. Since he will go to the University next year he wants me to show around our campus” Chinen explained to Yamada.
“So what’s the problem?”
“But tomorrow I had promised Yuto-Kun to accompany him to photo exhibition”
“Owh, don’t worry about that. I will pick Ryu-Chan up and show him around the campus” Since Yamada and Chinen had being best friend from childhood, Yamada had become familiar with all Chinen family including Ryutaro; Chinen’s closest cousin.
“No, that’s not what I want you to do” Chinen replied.
“Then what?”Yamada sounded confused.
“I want you to accompany Yuto-Kun to photo exhibition”
“What?!!!” Yamada scream as he couldn’t believe what he just heard.
“Yuto-kun is your boyfriend, why do I have to go in your place? Besides you rather choose your cousin over your boyfriend?” Yamada asked boldly.
“But Yama-chan you know how Ryu-chan is right?” Chinen’s question reminded Yamada how Ryutaro acted toward people around him. Ryutaro is a boy who wouldn’t accept people around him easily. He doesn’t open his heart to others, except he truly knows that person. The only person that he would listen to is Chinen, in fact it took almost 2 years for Ryutaro to talked back to Yamada.
“Please Yama-chan I’m begging you. I already talked with Yuto-kun and he doesn’t mind going to the exhibition with you” Chinen was begging desperately hoping Yamada would understand his situation.
“Onegai Yama-chan…”
“But I’m pretty sure Yuto-kun wouldn’t mind if he goes alone. Beside he not a child who need an adult surveillance” Yamada came out with relevant point hoping he can get away with it.
“I know Yuto-kun wouldn’t mind but I do. I can’t let him go alone”
“Why?” Yamada asked for a reason.
“Because every time Yuto-kun was alone there definitely will be other girls who will lure themselves around him” Chinen voice sounded worried in the phone line.
“Like I said before Yuto-kun is not a child, he can take care of himself” Yamada said as he tried to ease his bestfriend who sound so worried.
“I know that, but still I want you to go with him”
“For what?” Yamada asked for another reason.
“To ensure Yuto-kun safety”
“Safety?? What am I? A bodyguard?”
“If you were there, girls will pay less attention to Yuto-kun since you are so cute and adorable”
Yamada didn’t know how he should act toward Chinen’s statement. Either he should be happy by the compliment or he should be mad with it.
“So I’m a paw now?” Yamada asked with smirk on his face.
“Hehe more or less” Chinen laughter can be heard clearly from Yamada cell phone.
“Please Yama-Chan you know I won’t asked for your help unless I desperately need it”
“I know” Yamada had to agree with Chinen on this. Chinen wasn’t the type who would casually ask for others’ help unless he really really needed it. He knew that since he had being best friend with him for almost ten years.
“Please please please please please Yama-chan..”
“Alright, alright I will do it” Yamada said as he run out of excuses.
“Arigato Yama-chan!!”Chinen can’t be more happy after hearing the answer for Yamada.
“Hai, hai, so where do I have to meet Yuto-kun tomorrow?”
“He will be waiting for you in front of Shibuya station at 10 am”
“Okay.”
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So here he is standing nervously in front of Shibuya Station waiting for Yuto to arrive. It’s not like Yuto were late, but it’s him who was there a little bit early. Is 1 hour early is consider as a little bit early? Yamada start to wonder. It took him two hour to decide which clothes to wear this morning. Why is he acting like a girl who’s going out for her first date with a boyfriend? Because it is his first date just to make a different it’s a date with his best friend boyfriend Nakajima Yuto.
“Wait, wait it’s not a date, it just two boys hang out together, right? So there no reason why I need to be so nervous,” Yamada mumbled to himself.
How he wished things could be that simple, how he wish that he could treat Yuto the way he treat his other friend. But unfortunately thing couldn’t be that simple since he’s deeply in love with Nakajima Yuto. Yes he is in love with his best friend’s boyfriend from the very first time his eyes meets that unquestionably handsome guy.
Yamada remember clearly that day, when Chinen introduced Yuto as his boyfriend to him. Yamada heart was racing so fast the moment he touched Yuto hand when that taller guy offered his hand as introduction signature. At that very moment Yamada realized that he had fallen for Nakajima Yuto, a fall that hits so hard causing his heart to break into pieces. Because the moment he fall in love was the same time he knows that his love will never be reciprocated. Starting that day, Yamada tried his best to keep his feeling from Yuto knowledge, in fact each time Chinen and Yuto are together he would come up with million of excuses so that he can get away from them. Sometimes Yamada felt disgusts with himself, how could him fallen for his best friend boyfriend. Yamada know he’s the worst and he don’t deserved Chinen as his best friend. But still, he can’t cast off the feeling that he had for Yuto, he tried dating other girls but it all end up with failure because in the end it’s Nakajima Yuto whom his heart longing for.
By saying “yes” to Chinen last night is like giving himself a death sentence. How he going to spend a whole day with the guy he deeply in love with, without fallen even deeper for that guy. Sighing heavily Yamada walks toward the park near the station looking for a bench so that he can rest for a while.
“Yamada Ryosuke”
Yamada’s step stopped after he heard someone called his name, as he turn slowly he can see Nakajima
Yuto was running toward him. Seeing Yuto at this far distance already caused Yamada heart to beat rapidly, having Yuto by his side will only caused his heart to explode.
“That’s why I’m saying this is a death sentence to me,” Yamada placed his hand on his chest hoping his heartbeat will slowdown but it’s seem like his heartbeat keep accelerating as Yuto approaching him.
“I’m definitely gonna die!!”
“Have you waited long?” Yuto asked as he reached Yamada who stood still in front of the station.
“Urmm n-no-no, I just got here,” Yamada stutter by his words.
“Great! Gomen ne for making you come today. I already told Chinen that I will be fine by myself but he really insists you to accompany me,” Yuto said as he ruffle his hair with his hand.
“It’s okay. Shall we go now?” Yamada said as he making his ways to the street.
“H-Hai”
Each time Yuto tried to make his pace same as Yamada, he noticed that Yamada will walk faster than him left him behind. Every time Yuto tried to make a conversation with Yamada, the only things that he got just a nodding by that shorter guy, given up by Yamada attitude Yuto just trail behind Yamada silently until they reach photo exhibition gallery.
“I really wish I could capture such a great photo someday” Yuto voice crack the silent between his and Yamada.
“Your major is photography right?”Yamada asked for certainty, he remember Chinen told him once.
“Yes, I’m always into the photography since I was young. You know what I asked from my parents for my 5th birthday? I asked for camera” Yuto said with the smile on his face. The smile that caused Yamada to fall even deeper for him.
“Did you get it?”
“Yeah I did, but not the real one. My parents said it to early for me to own the real one so they bought me the toy camera, even tough it’s only a toy I couldn’t be happier at that time” A small laughter come out from Yuto lips. The lips that Yamada wish he can touch. Taken by Yuto laugh, Yamada didn’t realized that his hand were already on Yuto’s lips.
“What is it Yamada?” Yuto sound surprise as he felt Yamada cold hand on his lips.
“U-urmm nothing.. I wait for you outside” quickly Yamada take his hand off Yuto lips and walk toward the exit door. The exit door seem so far for him, as he can felt Yuto eyes were on his as he walking out of the galleries.
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“You know there this delicious bakery just around the corner and I heard their strawberry cakes were the best. Would you like to have a slice of cake with me?” Yuto asked Yamada who had being waiting for him outside the galleries.
“But, I have..”
“Please Yamada, at least this is a thing that I could do to make up for your time that I had taken” Yuto felt so guilty for making Yamada to accompany him to the exhibition and he noticed how uncomfortable Yamada being acting toward him. “Maybe because he hates it spending time with me,” assumed Yuto.
“Okay” Even though Yamada’s replies were short, it was enough for Yuto.
As they walked to the bakery, suddenly Yamada stop in front of the pet shop. Trough the pet shop big window, Yamada can see clearly two white rabbits in the cage happily chasing one another. Yamada were so taken by the rabbits that he didn’t notice Yuto was watching him all the time. This is the first time Yuto got a chance to stand closed to Yamada, because before this he always avoided him for no reason.
“You like rabbit?”Yuto asked Yamada.
“Y-yeah” Yamada was surprised how closed Yuto being stand to him caused to back off a little.
“Then would you like to keep one?”
“No I can’t. I already had two dogs, I’m pretty sure my mom won’t allow me to add another pet”
“Let’s go inside” Yuto said as he grab Yamada hand and pull him inside the pet shop.
The warmth that Yamada feel from Yuto hand caused his body to burn hotter than it already had just by standing beside that taller guy. His mind was completely empty by now, as he look at Yuto right hand which firmly grip his left hand.
“Do you like this one?” Yuto’s voice suddenly took Yamada back to the reality.
“Y-yeah” Yamada quickly loosened his hand from Yuto grip and take the white rabbit that Yuto was holding.
“Kawaii usagi-chan~~” Yamada said as he slowly placed the rabbit on the floor and squatted down with his hand patting the rabbit.
Yamada’s happy time with usagi-chan got distracted as he heard clicking sound coming from Yuto who had being standing in front of him with camera on his hand.
“What are you doing?” Yamada asked with unsatisfied look on his face.
“Ah gomen, I hope you don’t mind if I take a few picture of yours?” Yuto asked with guilty feeling since he noticed how Yamada look uncomfortable with his action.
“I hate it.” Yamada replied firmly without looking at Yuto face.
“Gomen..” Yuto didn’t expect this to happen when things just started to run smoothly between him and Yamada.
Yamada know his words were harsh on Yuto, but that the only way that he can think right now to distance himself from Yuto. Only God know how he felt when he noticed Yuto lens was on his face, he could die because of the extremely happy feeling inside his heart. Having your photo being taken by the person you love the most was like a dream a come true for Yamada. “Gomen ne Yuto-Kun”
“Let’s go” Yamada said after placed back the white rabbit into it cage.
“H-hai” Yuto replied as he tried to catch up with Yamada who’s already on his moved.
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“Welcome. Can I take your orders?” the waitress in the pink skirt asked Yuto and Yamada when they take their seat at the corner of the bakery.
“What do you want Yamada?” Yuto asked as he flip trough the menu.
“Anything will be fine”
“We would like to have two slice of Chocolate Strawberries cake and two glasses of milk smoothies” Yuto order with smile on his face caused the waitress to jump happily.
“Do you always do that?”Yamada asked.
“Do what?” Yuto asked with a puzzle look on his face
“Smile happily to others. Chinen might be jealous if he looks how happily that girl is.”
“Haha, Chinen won’t be jealous because of that” Yuto replied with a giggle.
“But I do get jealous when you smile to that girl”
“Yamada can I asked you something?”
“What is it?”
“Do you hate me?” Yuto asked with lonely look on his face.
Yamada swore if he didn’t restrain himself at that current moment he might be stand behind Yuto’s back hugging him tightly with his both hands. Wrapping Yuto tightly around his chest so that Yuto won’t have that lonely look on his face.
“I d-don’t hate you”
“Then why are you avoiding me? Each time I’m with Chinen you will come out with excuses so that you can get away from me. When I’m walking next to you, you will walk ahead me or stay so far from me. And each time I’m standing closed to you, you will back away from me” Yuto said with his eyes looked directly to Yamada eyes asking for explanation.
“That’s because I love you, Nakajima Yuto” how Yamada wished Yuto could hear what his heart saying, but unfortunately the words only echo in his heart.
“I got my own reason” Yamada replied as his eyes tried to got away from Yuto gaze.
“Can you tell me the reason?”
“No, I can’t. You got nothing to do with it, it just me” explained Yamada hoping that his words would ease Yuto.
“Okay” Yuto replied while he tried to smile happily but Yamada know Yuto were still bothered by it.
Awkward silence filled the air as Yamada and Yuto having their Chocolate strawberries cakes and milk smoothies. The cakes taste bitter for Yamada, he don’t think he can finish it up as his mind were so messed up right know.
“Things just turn from worse to hell, now he thinks that I hate him. Wasn’t it just great?” Yamada knows he’s the reason why Yuto looks so down right now. Indirectly he just hurt the person that he loved the most because of his selfishness.
“Can I have a look at the picture that you took earlier?” Yamada asked as he tried to lighten Yuto moods.
“Yeah sure” Yuto said as he handed over the camera to Yamada.
The photo taken by Yuto left Yamada speechless since the photos were so perfect, Yamada couldn’t believe his eyes when he saw his picture. He completely look like someone else, aside the photo taken from the pet shop there also photo of his at the galleries.
“When did he take this?” Yamada asked to himself.
“Had he been watching me?” Yamada can feel that his face was blushing with pink color.
“Sugoii..Your photos were so great!!” Yamada voiced out after a long silence.
“You think so?”
“Yeah!! I look like a different person in your photo” Yamada said with a cheerful voice.
“It’s wasn’t because of me that make the photo look great.” Yuto denies.
“Then?”
“It was because of you that make the photo look perfect.” Yuto said with a big smile plaster on his face.
“H-hai?” Yamada stutter by his words when he heard the sweet reply by Yuto.
“Yama-chan posses such a cute and adorable face. If I wasn’t with Chinen right now I’m definitely gonna fall for you” Yuto said with dim eyes as he hands caressed Yamada squishy cheek.
“Stop it!!” startled by Yuto word and action, Yamada push Yuto hands away from his check.
“I’m going home first” Yamada said leaved the confusion Nakajima Yuto behind.
“What was I doing just now??” Yuto asked himself while looking at his hand. His hand seems to move by itself, because the next thing he knew was his hand was already on Yamada check. “Why do I have to mess things up when it was just about to run smoothly?” Yuto’s pretty sure by now, that Yamada would hate him more than he already did.
”Damn!!” shouted Yuto with his fist smashed the table.
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As Yamada runs he wasn’t sure either the liquid on his check were the raindrop or the teardrop falling from his eyes. All he know right now is he want to get away as far as he can from Nakajima Yuto the boy who his dearly in love with. The raindrop started to pour down heavily from the cloudy skies, accompany his endless running. Yamada stop running when he reached the old shack situated by the road, seeking for shelter from the heavy rain. The sudden sound of thunder and lightning caused Yamada to tremble heavily. His heart started to beat rapidly and the feeling of dread creeping into his heart. Feel so sacred by the sound of thunder Yamada cover his ears with his both hand hoping that the sound would go away. He closed his eyed tightly, and seat on the shack wooden floor.
Suddenly Yamada feel a cold hand touch his hand, looking up Yamada can see Yuto wet face smile dearly to him. Slowly Yuto make a seat beside Yamada and removed Yamada hand’s from his ears as he placed his headphone on Yamada ears. The sound of music fill Yamada heads, cast away the sound of thunder that he being afraid off.
“It’s okay I’m here” Yuto whispered while his hand slowly pull Yamada small body toward his chest. Yamada can feel Yuto hand tighten the embrace around him as Yamada hide his face on Yuto chest. All the anxiety that Yamada feel seem to fade away as he feel so safe and soundless on Yuto warm embrace.
Yamada has no idea for how many hours he had been sleeping, when he opened his eyes he could feel Yuto breath on his forehead.
“Did I wake you up?” Yuto asked as he looked at Yamada face.
“Urmm n-no. What time is it?” Yamada asked with blushing face as he felt so embarrassed with his current situation.
“It almost 6 p.m.”
“I think I should get going by now.” Yamada said while his loose himself from Yuto embrace and shove himself away from Yuto.
“Let’s me send you home” Yuto request as he lent his hand toward Yamada.
“It’s okay I can..”
“Please Yama-chan.”
“Okay” Yamada replied as he take Yuto cold hand and stand up.
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“You having an astraphobia aren’t you?”Yuto voiced out as they walking.
“Astraphobia? What that?” Yamada asked as this is the first time he heard that word.
“You don’t know? Astraphobia is an abnormal fear of thunder and lightning.” Explain Yuto.
“Hurmm maybe. Since I was young I always afraid of thunder and lightning, each time I heard or saw lightning I will hide myself under blanket” Yamada giggled as he remember how silly he could be each time he having this kind of fear.
“You now this is the first time I heard you laugh. You look even cuter when you smile, would you smile for me more?” Yuto asked.
“You had Chinen don’t you? What you need my smile for?” Yamada didn’t know where these words come from but he knows right now he sounds exactly like a jealous lover.
“Because I want you”
“W-what?!!” Yamada couldn’t believe what he just heard from Yuto.
“Gomen, just forget what I had said”
“How am I supposed to forget that?!!” Yamada gritted his lips, holding himself back from crying. His mind went completely empty as his heart aching from Yuto words. “Why he had to stir my feeling and pretend like nothing happened?”
“You can let go of my hand now. My houses just around the corner,” Yamada noticed that Yuto kept holdings his hand since they were walking from that old shack. He tried countless of time to loosen his hand from Yuto’s grip but each time he did that he can feel Yuto gripping his hand firmly.
“Yamada, if we happened to meet in different situation, where I’m not your best friend boyfriend would you be my boyfriend?” Yuto asked while looking sadly at his hand which is currently hold Yamada hand tightly.
“Yamada if we happened to meet in the next life, will you let me hold your small hand all the time?” Yuto asked as he slowly let go of Yamada hand.
“Yamada if we happened to meet as two strangers will you let me be there for you every time it’s raining heavily?” Yuto asked as he placed his hand on Yamada check whipping off Yamada tear’s with his fingers.
“Yamada if we happened to be lovers will you let me love you unconditionally?” Yuto asked as he runs his hand dearly on Yamada lips.
Yuto’s words were like a lightning hitting him; Yamada can feel his whole body trembling as Yuto’s words flow through his heart. He doesn’t think he can stand anymore as his knees start to weaker and his tears were running like a heavy rains.
“G-Gomen ne Yama-Chan, it seemed like I cross the line again” Yuto voice out after a long awkward silence between them. Yamada didn’t answer a word to Yuto question; he just stood there with his eyes looking down.
“See you later” Yuto said as he stepped away from Yamada who seem to be in really confused stated.
“Y-YES!! The answer to each of your question is YES, baka!!” Yamada scream out loud. Yamada’s scream stopped Yuto for taking one step away from him.
“Really? I’m so happy to hear that” Yuto replied with a big smile on his face.
“Then I will definitely gonna find you in my next life. It’s a promise!!” Yuto said as he waved to Yamada.
“And I will definitely gonna wait for you” Yamada whisper as he saw Yuto figure’s started to faded away from his eyes. The feeling that he had for Yuto will always be there in his heart, and he will treasure it dearly. Yamada know he like the moon who in love with the sun, because this love will never be reciprocated. Because the guy he in love with is his best friend boyfriend. . .
-owari-
Note:
1)First thanks a lot to Gaii, you've been such a big helper to me..you even help me on the posting(I don't know how to post using HTML), so all i need to do is "cut n paste" hontou ni arigatoo Gaii*big hugs*
2)Okay I know it wasn't a happy ending story TT.TT but please don't hate me because of that TT.TT Once i finished written it I realized how much i hate it when Yamada couldn't be with Yuto because they were made for each other TT.TT
3)Sorry because there no edited picture in this one I only manage to make the banner *bows*
3)I really really love a comment please make one for me nee, I would like to know how you feel about the story ^___^
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Author: pink_stitchy
Pairing: Yamajima, YutoChii
Rating: PG-13
Beta: koigaii
Summary: Yamada Ryosuke is in love with his best friend boyfriend, what would happen if Yamada get a chance to spend a whole day with the boy his heart logging for?...
The only thing that Yamada Ryosuke wished he could do right now is to turn back the time. Turn back to 10 hours before, so that he can take back all the words that put him into this current situation. Seriously, he can’t believe that he would say “yes” to Chinen when he asked him to do this in their phone conservation last night.
“Moshi moshi Yama-Chan”Chinen voice sound desperate on the phone line.
“Moshi moshi Chii. What’s up?’ Yamada sounded half awake when he picked up Chinen’s call.
“Yama-Chan gomen ne~~ Did I wake you up?” Chinen asked guiltily.
“Urmm it’s okay. What’s the matter Chii?” Yamada asked curiously because it really rare for Chinen to called him in the middle of night.
“Ano ne Yama-Chan, I got a problem and you are the only person that can help me out right now”
“What is it?” Yamada start to worry after heard how serious Chinen sound right now.
“Tomorrow my cousin, Ryu-Chan is coming to Tokyo. Since he will go to the University next year he wants me to show around our campus” Chinen explained to Yamada.
“So what’s the problem?”
“But tomorrow I had promised Yuto-Kun to accompany him to photo exhibition”
“Owh, don’t worry about that. I will pick Ryu-Chan up and show him around the campus” Since Yamada and Chinen had being best friend from childhood, Yamada had become familiar with all Chinen family including Ryutaro; Chinen’s closest cousin.
“No, that’s not what I want you to do” Chinen replied.
“Then what?”Yamada sounded confused.
“I want you to accompany Yuto-Kun to photo exhibition”
“What?!!!” Yamada scream as he couldn’t believe what he just heard.
“Yuto-kun is your boyfriend, why do I have to go in your place? Besides you rather choose your cousin over your boyfriend?” Yamada asked boldly.
“But Yama-chan you know how Ryu-chan is right?” Chinen’s question reminded Yamada how Ryutaro acted toward people around him. Ryutaro is a boy who wouldn’t accept people around him easily. He doesn’t open his heart to others, except he truly knows that person. The only person that he would listen to is Chinen, in fact it took almost 2 years for Ryutaro to talked back to Yamada.
“Please Yama-chan I’m begging you. I already talked with Yuto-kun and he doesn’t mind going to the exhibition with you” Chinen was begging desperately hoping Yamada would understand his situation.
“Onegai Yama-chan…”
“But I’m pretty sure Yuto-kun wouldn’t mind if he goes alone. Beside he not a child who need an adult surveillance” Yamada came out with relevant point hoping he can get away with it.
“I know Yuto-kun wouldn’t mind but I do. I can’t let him go alone”
“Why?” Yamada asked for a reason.
“Because every time Yuto-kun was alone there definitely will be other girls who will lure themselves around him” Chinen voice sounded worried in the phone line.
“Like I said before Yuto-kun is not a child, he can take care of himself” Yamada said as he tried to ease his bestfriend who sound so worried.
“I know that, but still I want you to go with him”
“For what?” Yamada asked for another reason.
“To ensure Yuto-kun safety”
“Safety?? What am I? A bodyguard?”
“If you were there, girls will pay less attention to Yuto-kun since you are so cute and adorable”
Yamada didn’t know how he should act toward Chinen’s statement. Either he should be happy by the compliment or he should be mad with it.
“So I’m a paw now?” Yamada asked with smirk on his face.
“Hehe more or less” Chinen laughter can be heard clearly from Yamada cell phone.
“Please Yama-Chan you know I won’t asked for your help unless I desperately need it”
“I know” Yamada had to agree with Chinen on this. Chinen wasn’t the type who would casually ask for others’ help unless he really really needed it. He knew that since he had being best friend with him for almost ten years.
“Please please please please please Yama-chan..”
“Alright, alright I will do it” Yamada said as he run out of excuses.
“Arigato Yama-chan!!”Chinen can’t be more happy after hearing the answer for Yamada.
“Hai, hai, so where do I have to meet Yuto-kun tomorrow?”
“He will be waiting for you in front of Shibuya station at 10 am”
“Okay.”
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So here he is standing nervously in front of Shibuya Station waiting for Yuto to arrive. It’s not like Yuto were late, but it’s him who was there a little bit early. Is 1 hour early is consider as a little bit early? Yamada start to wonder. It took him two hour to decide which clothes to wear this morning. Why is he acting like a girl who’s going out for her first date with a boyfriend? Because it is his first date just to make a different it’s a date with his best friend boyfriend Nakajima Yuto.
“Wait, wait it’s not a date, it just two boys hang out together, right? So there no reason why I need to be so nervous,” Yamada mumbled to himself.
How he wished things could be that simple, how he wish that he could treat Yuto the way he treat his other friend. But unfortunately thing couldn’t be that simple since he’s deeply in love with Nakajima Yuto. Yes he is in love with his best friend’s boyfriend from the very first time his eyes meets that unquestionably handsome guy.
Yamada remember clearly that day, when Chinen introduced Yuto as his boyfriend to him. Yamada heart was racing so fast the moment he touched Yuto hand when that taller guy offered his hand as introduction signature. At that very moment Yamada realized that he had fallen for Nakajima Yuto, a fall that hits so hard causing his heart to break into pieces. Because the moment he fall in love was the same time he knows that his love will never be reciprocated. Starting that day, Yamada tried his best to keep his feeling from Yuto knowledge, in fact each time Chinen and Yuto are together he would come up with million of excuses so that he can get away from them. Sometimes Yamada felt disgusts with himself, how could him fallen for his best friend boyfriend. Yamada know he’s the worst and he don’t deserved Chinen as his best friend. But still, he can’t cast off the feeling that he had for Yuto, he tried dating other girls but it all end up with failure because in the end it’s Nakajima Yuto whom his heart longing for.
By saying “yes” to Chinen last night is like giving himself a death sentence. How he going to spend a whole day with the guy he deeply in love with, without fallen even deeper for that guy. Sighing heavily Yamada walks toward the park near the station looking for a bench so that he can rest for a while.
“Yamada Ryosuke”
Yamada’s step stopped after he heard someone called his name, as he turn slowly he can see Nakajima
Yuto was running toward him. Seeing Yuto at this far distance already caused Yamada heart to beat rapidly, having Yuto by his side will only caused his heart to explode.
“That’s why I’m saying this is a death sentence to me,” Yamada placed his hand on his chest hoping his heartbeat will slowdown but it’s seem like his heartbeat keep accelerating as Yuto approaching him.
“I’m definitely gonna die!!”
“Have you waited long?” Yuto asked as he reached Yamada who stood still in front of the station.
“Urmm n-no-no, I just got here,” Yamada stutter by his words.
“Great! Gomen ne for making you come today. I already told Chinen that I will be fine by myself but he really insists you to accompany me,” Yuto said as he ruffle his hair with his hand.
“It’s okay. Shall we go now?” Yamada said as he making his ways to the street.
“H-Hai”
Each time Yuto tried to make his pace same as Yamada, he noticed that Yamada will walk faster than him left him behind. Every time Yuto tried to make a conversation with Yamada, the only things that he got just a nodding by that shorter guy, given up by Yamada attitude Yuto just trail behind Yamada silently until they reach photo exhibition gallery.
“I really wish I could capture such a great photo someday” Yuto voice crack the silent between his and Yamada.
“Your major is photography right?”Yamada asked for certainty, he remember Chinen told him once.
“Yes, I’m always into the photography since I was young. You know what I asked from my parents for my 5th birthday? I asked for camera” Yuto said with the smile on his face. The smile that caused Yamada to fall even deeper for him.
“Did you get it?”
“Yeah I did, but not the real one. My parents said it to early for me to own the real one so they bought me the toy camera, even tough it’s only a toy I couldn’t be happier at that time” A small laughter come out from Yuto lips. The lips that Yamada wish he can touch. Taken by Yuto laugh, Yamada didn’t realized that his hand were already on Yuto’s lips.
“What is it Yamada?” Yuto sound surprise as he felt Yamada cold hand on his lips.
“U-urmm nothing.. I wait for you outside” quickly Yamada take his hand off Yuto lips and walk toward the exit door. The exit door seem so far for him, as he can felt Yuto eyes were on his as he walking out of the galleries.
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“You know there this delicious bakery just around the corner and I heard their strawberry cakes were the best. Would you like to have a slice of cake with me?” Yuto asked Yamada who had being waiting for him outside the galleries.
“But, I have..”
“Please Yamada, at least this is a thing that I could do to make up for your time that I had taken” Yuto felt so guilty for making Yamada to accompany him to the exhibition and he noticed how uncomfortable Yamada being acting toward him. “Maybe because he hates it spending time with me,” assumed Yuto.
“Okay” Even though Yamada’s replies were short, it was enough for Yuto.
As they walked to the bakery, suddenly Yamada stop in front of the pet shop. Trough the pet shop big window, Yamada can see clearly two white rabbits in the cage happily chasing one another. Yamada were so taken by the rabbits that he didn’t notice Yuto was watching him all the time. This is the first time Yuto got a chance to stand closed to Yamada, because before this he always avoided him for no reason.
“You like rabbit?”Yuto asked Yamada.
“Y-yeah” Yamada was surprised how closed Yuto being stand to him caused to back off a little.
“Then would you like to keep one?”
“No I can’t. I already had two dogs, I’m pretty sure my mom won’t allow me to add another pet”
“Let’s go inside” Yuto said as he grab Yamada hand and pull him inside the pet shop.
The warmth that Yamada feel from Yuto hand caused his body to burn hotter than it already had just by standing beside that taller guy. His mind was completely empty by now, as he look at Yuto right hand which firmly grip his left hand.
“Do you like this one?” Yuto’s voice suddenly took Yamada back to the reality.
“Y-yeah” Yamada quickly loosened his hand from Yuto grip and take the white rabbit that Yuto was holding.
“Kawaii usagi-chan~~” Yamada said as he slowly placed the rabbit on the floor and squatted down with his hand patting the rabbit.
Yamada’s happy time with usagi-chan got distracted as he heard clicking sound coming from Yuto who had being standing in front of him with camera on his hand.
“What are you doing?” Yamada asked with unsatisfied look on his face.
“Ah gomen, I hope you don’t mind if I take a few picture of yours?” Yuto asked with guilty feeling since he noticed how Yamada look uncomfortable with his action.
“I hate it.” Yamada replied firmly without looking at Yuto face.
“Gomen..” Yuto didn’t expect this to happen when things just started to run smoothly between him and Yamada.
Yamada know his words were harsh on Yuto, but that the only way that he can think right now to distance himself from Yuto. Only God know how he felt when he noticed Yuto lens was on his face, he could die because of the extremely happy feeling inside his heart. Having your photo being taken by the person you love the most was like a dream a come true for Yamada. “Gomen ne Yuto-Kun”
“Let’s go” Yamada said after placed back the white rabbit into it cage.
“H-hai” Yuto replied as he tried to catch up with Yamada who’s already on his moved.
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“Welcome. Can I take your orders?” the waitress in the pink skirt asked Yuto and Yamada when they take their seat at the corner of the bakery.
“What do you want Yamada?” Yuto asked as he flip trough the menu.
“Anything will be fine”
“We would like to have two slice of Chocolate Strawberries cake and two glasses of milk smoothies” Yuto order with smile on his face caused the waitress to jump happily.
“Do you always do that?”Yamada asked.
“Do what?” Yuto asked with a puzzle look on his face
“Smile happily to others. Chinen might be jealous if he looks how happily that girl is.”
“Haha, Chinen won’t be jealous because of that” Yuto replied with a giggle.
“But I do get jealous when you smile to that girl”
“Yamada can I asked you something?”
“What is it?”
“Do you hate me?” Yuto asked with lonely look on his face.
Yamada swore if he didn’t restrain himself at that current moment he might be stand behind Yuto’s back hugging him tightly with his both hands. Wrapping Yuto tightly around his chest so that Yuto won’t have that lonely look on his face.
“I d-don’t hate you”
“Then why are you avoiding me? Each time I’m with Chinen you will come out with excuses so that you can get away from me. When I’m walking next to you, you will walk ahead me or stay so far from me. And each time I’m standing closed to you, you will back away from me” Yuto said with his eyes looked directly to Yamada eyes asking for explanation.
“That’s because I love you, Nakajima Yuto” how Yamada wished Yuto could hear what his heart saying, but unfortunately the words only echo in his heart.
“I got my own reason” Yamada replied as his eyes tried to got away from Yuto gaze.
“Can you tell me the reason?”
“No, I can’t. You got nothing to do with it, it just me” explained Yamada hoping that his words would ease Yuto.
“Okay” Yuto replied while he tried to smile happily but Yamada know Yuto were still bothered by it.
Awkward silence filled the air as Yamada and Yuto having their Chocolate strawberries cakes and milk smoothies. The cakes taste bitter for Yamada, he don’t think he can finish it up as his mind were so messed up right know.
“Things just turn from worse to hell, now he thinks that I hate him. Wasn’t it just great?” Yamada knows he’s the reason why Yuto looks so down right now. Indirectly he just hurt the person that he loved the most because of his selfishness.
“Can I have a look at the picture that you took earlier?” Yamada asked as he tried to lighten Yuto moods.
“Yeah sure” Yuto said as he handed over the camera to Yamada.
The photo taken by Yuto left Yamada speechless since the photos were so perfect, Yamada couldn’t believe his eyes when he saw his picture. He completely look like someone else, aside the photo taken from the pet shop there also photo of his at the galleries.
“When did he take this?” Yamada asked to himself.
“Had he been watching me?” Yamada can feel that his face was blushing with pink color.
“Sugoii..Your photos were so great!!” Yamada voiced out after a long silence.
“You think so?”
“Yeah!! I look like a different person in your photo” Yamada said with a cheerful voice.
“It’s wasn’t because of me that make the photo look great.” Yuto denies.
“Then?”
“It was because of you that make the photo look perfect.” Yuto said with a big smile plaster on his face.
“H-hai?” Yamada stutter by his words when he heard the sweet reply by Yuto.
“Yama-chan posses such a cute and adorable face. If I wasn’t with Chinen right now I’m definitely gonna fall for you” Yuto said with dim eyes as he hands caressed Yamada squishy cheek.
“Stop it!!” startled by Yuto word and action, Yamada push Yuto hands away from his check.
“I’m going home first” Yamada said leaved the confusion Nakajima Yuto behind.
“What was I doing just now??” Yuto asked himself while looking at his hand. His hand seems to move by itself, because the next thing he knew was his hand was already on Yamada check. “Why do I have to mess things up when it was just about to run smoothly?” Yuto’s pretty sure by now, that Yamada would hate him more than he already did.
”Damn!!” shouted Yuto with his fist smashed the table.
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As Yamada runs he wasn’t sure either the liquid on his check were the raindrop or the teardrop falling from his eyes. All he know right now is he want to get away as far as he can from Nakajima Yuto the boy who his dearly in love with. The raindrop started to pour down heavily from the cloudy skies, accompany his endless running. Yamada stop running when he reached the old shack situated by the road, seeking for shelter from the heavy rain. The sudden sound of thunder and lightning caused Yamada to tremble heavily. His heart started to beat rapidly and the feeling of dread creeping into his heart. Feel so sacred by the sound of thunder Yamada cover his ears with his both hand hoping that the sound would go away. He closed his eyed tightly, and seat on the shack wooden floor.
Suddenly Yamada feel a cold hand touch his hand, looking up Yamada can see Yuto wet face smile dearly to him. Slowly Yuto make a seat beside Yamada and removed Yamada hand’s from his ears as he placed his headphone on Yamada ears. The sound of music fill Yamada heads, cast away the sound of thunder that he being afraid off.
“It’s okay I’m here” Yuto whispered while his hand slowly pull Yamada small body toward his chest. Yamada can feel Yuto hand tighten the embrace around him as Yamada hide his face on Yuto chest. All the anxiety that Yamada feel seem to fade away as he feel so safe and soundless on Yuto warm embrace.
Yamada has no idea for how many hours he had been sleeping, when he opened his eyes he could feel Yuto breath on his forehead.
“Did I wake you up?” Yuto asked as he looked at Yamada face.
“Urmm n-no. What time is it?” Yamada asked with blushing face as he felt so embarrassed with his current situation.
“It almost 6 p.m.”
“I think I should get going by now.” Yamada said while his loose himself from Yuto embrace and shove himself away from Yuto.
“Let’s me send you home” Yuto request as he lent his hand toward Yamada.
“It’s okay I can..”
“Please Yama-chan.”
“Okay” Yamada replied as he take Yuto cold hand and stand up.
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“You having an astraphobia aren’t you?”Yuto voiced out as they walking.
“Astraphobia? What that?” Yamada asked as this is the first time he heard that word.
“You don’t know? Astraphobia is an abnormal fear of thunder and lightning.” Explain Yuto.
“Hurmm maybe. Since I was young I always afraid of thunder and lightning, each time I heard or saw lightning I will hide myself under blanket” Yamada giggled as he remember how silly he could be each time he having this kind of fear.
“You now this is the first time I heard you laugh. You look even cuter when you smile, would you smile for me more?” Yuto asked.
“You had Chinen don’t you? What you need my smile for?” Yamada didn’t know where these words come from but he knows right now he sounds exactly like a jealous lover.
“Because I want you”
“W-what?!!” Yamada couldn’t believe what he just heard from Yuto.
“Gomen, just forget what I had said”
“How am I supposed to forget that?!!” Yamada gritted his lips, holding himself back from crying. His mind went completely empty as his heart aching from Yuto words. “Why he had to stir my feeling and pretend like nothing happened?”
“You can let go of my hand now. My houses just around the corner,” Yamada noticed that Yuto kept holdings his hand since they were walking from that old shack. He tried countless of time to loosen his hand from Yuto’s grip but each time he did that he can feel Yuto gripping his hand firmly.
“Yamada, if we happened to meet in different situation, where I’m not your best friend boyfriend would you be my boyfriend?” Yuto asked while looking sadly at his hand which is currently hold Yamada hand tightly.
“Yamada if we happened to meet in the next life, will you let me hold your small hand all the time?” Yuto asked as he slowly let go of Yamada hand.
“Yamada if we happened to meet as two strangers will you let me be there for you every time it’s raining heavily?” Yuto asked as he placed his hand on Yamada check whipping off Yamada tear’s with his fingers.
“Yamada if we happened to be lovers will you let me love you unconditionally?” Yuto asked as he runs his hand dearly on Yamada lips.
Yuto’s words were like a lightning hitting him; Yamada can feel his whole body trembling as Yuto’s words flow through his heart. He doesn’t think he can stand anymore as his knees start to weaker and his tears were running like a heavy rains.
“G-Gomen ne Yama-Chan, it seemed like I cross the line again” Yuto voice out after a long awkward silence between them. Yamada didn’t answer a word to Yuto question; he just stood there with his eyes looking down.
“See you later” Yuto said as he stepped away from Yamada who seem to be in really confused stated.
“Y-YES!! The answer to each of your question is YES, baka!!” Yamada scream out loud. Yamada’s scream stopped Yuto for taking one step away from him.
“Really? I’m so happy to hear that” Yuto replied with a big smile on his face.
“Then I will definitely gonna find you in my next life. It’s a promise!!” Yuto said as he waved to Yamada.
“And I will definitely gonna wait for you” Yamada whisper as he saw Yuto figure’s started to faded away from his eyes. The feeling that he had for Yuto will always be there in his heart, and he will treasure it dearly. Yamada know he like the moon who in love with the sun, because this love will never be reciprocated. Because the guy he in love with is his best friend boyfriend. . .
-owari-
Note:
1)First thanks a lot to Gaii, you've been such a big helper to me..you even help me on the posting(I don't know how to post using HTML), so all i need to do is "cut n paste" hontou ni arigatoo Gaii*big hugs*
2)Okay I know it wasn't a happy ending story TT.TT but please don't hate me because of that TT.TT Once i finished written it I realized how much i hate it when Yamada couldn't be with Yuto because they were made for each other TT.TT
3)Sorry because there no edited picture in this one I only manage to make the banner *bows*
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