oh what reform i have gone through these past months. Learning what is important and significant in life has become a leading role. I know now that i cannot depend on others - as much as i'd like to, and we all do it sometimes, we just can't all the time. I am a person of faith that resides in myself, and in no one else can i find it for me. I have ( Read more... )

ah well, when things get shitty, sometimes they just get even more shitty. Although I took my first Ethics test today, i missed one question, i'm concerned about it, but i will at least get a 90% i'm hoping. but this pharmacology stuff- holy shit, i didn't know that carbidimide was a pre-cursor to levadopa and that levadopa is dominergic. like this ( Read more... )

well, the good news is is that i'll be having lots of time to do my school work. matt is helping me sell like all of my clothes on ebay so i can pay for stuff. i'm on too many medications and i hate it. i just want to be off everything but i cant be. the smallest things are driving me crazy. just everything. i dont even know. i feel like my brain ( Read more... )

ugh, i feel like shit. have all day. woke up at 2pm. sorted through my clothes. ended up going tanning. and my body aches. it sucks. i hung out with beth and matt yesterday, she's really cool, we're gonna han gout again soon. so that'll be cool. man i feel like shit ( Read more... )

helllllloooo beautifuls. i just got my transcript, MOTHER FUCKIN 4.0 GPA BITCHES fuck yeah. my new classes are sooooo hard. the pharmacology one is to be a technician, so we actually go to the hospital and pharmacies thats so awesome. my abnormal psychology class isn't too bad, interesting, but lots of work to be done! and tomorrow is ethics....not ( Read more... )

so i just got back from dr.quack. i'm going to be taking 400mgs of welbutrin, 100mgs of Lamictal (anti-convulsant & mood stabalizer), adderall 20xr, adderall 10 xr, and my klonopin 2mg. fun eh? hopefully it will fix me, without medication certainly doesn't do good things for me as i've noticed in the past. it just sucks that i have to do all this, ( Read more... )

so lately things have been real shitty. can't pay my car bills, phone bills, and my house is damn cold i'll tell you that much. last night was fucked up....i fucked up again - i already saw it coming, its nothing new to me. i want to find the good in people but it seems to not exist ( Read more... )

ahh what a day it has been. i got up late for work and ended up not working. but i work on friday. but i dont work tomorrow. i have to get my pictures done with chris, i really wanna do those soon. i got my -snug- piercing today, this morning by chris. it doesnt hurt like at all, i didn't even feel it. got to chill with mike later on and we watched ( Read more... )

apparently i'm getting a job at the pita pit, chris got me a job there. i gotta go pick up my school books too, cause class starts january 10th. so yeah. today i've been reorganzing my room and thats about it after i went to my doctor. too many doctors, too many bills. money = urban decay. stupid pieces of paper ( Read more... )

emma is about to lose her house, already got phone shut off, and is out of her medication and has no doctors anymore because i could'nt pay for my insurance..cause my mom lost her job.. :-(

if ANYONE can help me out....please do

dying seems to be a better option.