everything seems perfect right now ( Read more... )

life sucks, it's okay.
i'll just keep smiling and pretending.

you can pretend you don't like a person. you can repeat it over and over in your head and tell yourself all the reasons why it wouldn't work and why you couldn't possibly be compatible. you can make lists and lists of all the things that don't fit, and why they don't fit. you can look at them and try to say what you don't mean. the truth is, ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like i live two lives and i alternate days between them. somedays, i'm living this awesome life, where everything is perfect and amazing and i don't envy anyone but myself. somedays, however, i feel awful and i wish i could just sit down and cry because everything is so bad. friday and saturday were both the second kind. dang ( Read more... )

best day ever, kthanksbye.
:) x's 2348203901290231.
times infinity.

it really is amazing how much i care about him, or anything that has to do with him. i didn't want to like him. it would be such a hassle. but i hang on his every word and call and wait for the moments and stress out when it's not happening. i hate it and now i just can't seem to shake it. i'm paranoid that everything has to do with me and mess up ( Read more... )

i am very tired.
but very happy.
(crazy how those two go together.)
&workout/dance are very hard.

what is going on.
i seriously cannot understand.

today i felt like a slacker.
eek.
(it was not the best of days!)
anyway, right about now i need a hug.
yes.

i will never not eat lunch again.
especially before practice.

today was awesome!

a. i didn't have AP history.
b. we stayed indoors for track.
c. my mp3 fits in my cellphone holder!
d. i saw him todayyyy. :)

bay arts today.
(i won a scholarship!)

where did my spring break go?

ps; springing clocks forward stinks.
yeahhhh.