i think its kinda funny how i could still be a depressed little fucker right now but instead im trying to make today the best day of my life, just like i did yesterday and will do tomorrow. im not going to be sorry for myself and no one else should.

im just glad im over it.

so nevermind. nothings worth it. and not going to say the bitchy comment.

i always back myself into a hole. i stayed at katies house on wednesday night and i shouldn't've because i didnt get my art portfolio done and it was due first period. but during first period on thursday cory was too busy making fun of me and i couldnt get my work done. i think brittney's mad at me, but i guess she's got a reason to be. sarahs ( Read more... )

this is a song that i wrote and katie can sing really well. sometimes i all get in the background and scream cause im cool like that. haha. its a good song though ( Read more... )

i dont know whats wrong with me ( Read more... )

adam dropped a cat on my face this morning.. now i have scratches ( Read more... )

i love livejournal. i just realized that..

and do you want me dead now? huh? do you? cause if you do i'd be happy to oblige.. i mean i wouldnt actually die, but, i would in a sense.

thankful for all of the people who've ever told me they love me even if they didnt mean it, for the desertion, for the betrayal, for giving me a reason to hate you, for giving me a reason to hate myself, for making me feel like shit, for showing me how i can become a better person, for shoving me back into the vicious cycle, for giving me my best ( Read more... )

She thinks you'll last forever ( Read more... )

*looks over at katie*

"we should shoot up alcohol"

*she shakes her head*

"no man"

haha

gah. i. feel. like. my. brain. is. dead.

but of course its all good. oh wait no its really not. HA! i keep scaring people away from me. and shit like that. no good thing stays in my life too long. cause i suck. at everything. psh, no one's ever going to be in love with me again and it really sucks.

how did my life get so fucked up?