Its awful to think that you can be something so barbaric.
Even when everything inside screams innocence, the truth always feels like guilt.

Its hell to be a coward. Its hell to be a liar.

jim pinches his toes while he reads.
gretta sleeps 20 hours a day.
brooke wears red glasses complete with rhinestones.
my brother lost 90 lbs on the Atkins Diet.
my best friend's 3 year old son told me that he "needs privacy to stinky poop."
my coworker's last name is Duda (dooo-dahhh).

i am writing a letter to the president of the united states.
its posthum from herbert spencer with the flare that only one Amy Stewart-Brown could add.

i know, it really makes no sense.
but, 25 pages from now, it'll all be clear.
and, hell, if its not clear, at least it'll all be over.

talk to me in about 60 hours for my final reactions.

growing koi and hiking the back 40: now that sounds like living.

taking a few deep breathes and thinking about a few passed moments: now that sounds like struggling.

i'll do some more research and put off a few more (un)necessary tasks.
and it'll all feel familiar.

writing and writing and writing...
graduate school.

thinking and thinking and thinking...
life.

love and love and love...
marriage.

I can't stop thinking about all of things in my life that are broken. Broken promises, broken friendships ( Read more... )

Maybe I just put too much faith in him. Or my needs and desires have started to feel like pressure to him. Or maybe we are just human ( Read more... )

I held it in, tight, like freshly exhausted warm air. It soon tastes hot and leaves me, desperate.
He calls it a sweet release (she said it felt like an unexpected end).

I wanted to draw it with pinks and reds and leave behind all the remnants of blue and yellow and purpling bruises.

i have been seriously contemplating friendship. the concept, the reality, the fear, the joy. i guess this comes as a direct response to finding myself married, in a new place, and extremely thankful to those who got me this far. because, if you have known me for a while, you know completely that i am incapable of this alone ( Read more... )

i said it but i guess i never realized that i really did mean it.
but you always find out the truth.