He's not gonna come. I know, I know... but honestly, I just know it, in my pessimistic intuition. The signs are all there... it's just not gonna happen.

Hey, at least I'm not in denial, right? So... theoretically, this should HELP me have an otherwise productive summer.

We'll see.

I'm getting better, day by day, at dealing with this. It's preoccupying me less and less, making me sad not quite so often... and I'm trying to find ways to distract myself - doing considerably well, I think, considering my situation where there's only so much that can be done around here ( Read more... )

The truth is... I am happy. Because, I want to be happy, so even when on the overwhelming surface, everything sucks, and my crybaby comes out... inside, I can't help but be happy ( Read more... )

so much to say, so here comes a list ( Read more... )

Alisha brought up a good point yesterday. All of us people that are waiting for our boys to end their pledging periods.. all of us looking SO forward to "NEXT YEAR, next year it'll all be so much better ( Read more... )

( surveys )

I am starting to realize that I will never, ever learn ( Read more... )

I know I haven't updated (SORRY ALISHA) in forever... I'm in the process of locking up this diary friends-only and in the meantime I'm afraid to pour out any of my typical emotions ( Read more... )

It's strange. I find myself getting jealous of other couples now, like I was doing last year before David and Mo. The sweet things they do with each other and for each other... the way they talk about each other... the time they get to spend together ( Read more... )

Fear of the unknown scares me, but then... inevitability scares me too.