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WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!! I hate everything about myself and so i take it out on myself...just like always...i've been rather sick of late...but that's ok...Why take care of something you hate anyway? I jsut want to shoot myself in the head and get it all over with...my life is a shambles of realtiy...everything i love hates me in ( Read more... )

To all you fuckin fucks out there without Valintines...Here you are...I love you all dearly..BE MINE!!! Happy V-Day...or shold it really be V-D Day? ;)

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Hi i'm still alive!

I began my job today...it was...different. Yes i believe that would be the word to discribe it...it wasn't bad nor was it good...just different. I got up at 5:20am and got dressed i even brushed my hair and put on mak-up...do you HEAR ME MAKE-UP!!! You know me...how often do i get up at the ASS CRACK of dawn and put on make-up? Huh? hell when do i ( Read more... )

How do I love thee? Let me count the ways ( Read more... )

I'm so happy for you...I want you to know but i'm still heart broken...and i still get lost in your eyes...not the same way as before but instead it's a soul lost not just a love lost. I still love you some how some how i never should have to begin with. I know that i was not meant for you this life...that you made your choice and your choice was ( Read more... )

apparently reading my post is like doing homework...hehe...oh well

I hate the sinking feeling i get when i wake up in the morning to find that the one i was dreaming of is gone and it was jus a very nice dream, I know it is a dream, because my bed is still empty though other wise i might not be sure. I know who i'm dreaming of, i have been for months, but for now he is not here and i am alone. But just as i'm ( Read more... )