I'm the same way, and I've yet to be able to explain it to anyone in a way that hasn't offended them. I tell Josh, "I trust you the most out of anyone, but still not 100%," and it's difficult not to make it sound like he's untrustworthy.
Oneself is the only person one can count on, because one KNOWS what one thinks and does. I think the mistrust comes not necessarily from experience, but because of the different ways different people's minds work, and in recognizing that.
That sounds so limiting... Personally, I would rather give someone a shot with my full trust than hide in a corner all the time. And if they break my trust, who cares? I say "fuck 'em" and move on. Life's too short to live in a bubble.
Live and learn, kids.
(ps - PinkSpider522: I'm glad your hurting me has at least given you a laugh.
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Yeah... Because I can turn it on and off. Obviously I'm conciously limiting myself because I know what's going on and never ever do anything to stop it. It's never a reaction that I don't wish for, and something about myself that constantly bothers me, because hell, I don't know how to have a better mental outlook, and that's all I need to solve this problem that's been plaguing me for years.
Sounds like you think you're a victim. Even victims are not powerless, though. From personal experience, you can change a great many things about yourself if you really want to.
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Oneself is the only person one can count on, because one KNOWS what one thinks and does. I think the mistrust comes not necessarily from experience, but because of the different ways different people's minds work, and in recognizing that.
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Live and learn, kids.
(ps - PinkSpider522: I'm glad your hurting me has at least given you a laugh.
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In other news, I'm very snappy lately.
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Sounds like you think you're a victim. Even victims are not powerless, though.
From personal experience, you can change a great many things about yourself if you really want to.
A better outlook would be a good start, imo...
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