Run Away...

[pinkspiderhide]

Run away...yes run away...that's all you are good at doing...He beat himself up as he fled from Cha's house, from his friend and the only man that he had ever truly loved. From the pain in Yoshiki's eyes, the pain he'd helped place there

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[kaminotenshi]

Kami had been weaving aimlessly through Gackt's house at the time hide returned to Mana's. Suddenly, the spider he held on his shoulder bit him, or at least that was what Kami felt like the tiny sting was. It was shortly followed by a sharp headache and before he really realized what was going on, he was back at his garden.

hide...? he asked softly when he had gathered himself again, hide! His confusion quickly melted to worry as he gracefully knelt next to the guitarist and gently placed his hands on his friend's shoulder.

hide... hide... what's wrong...?

[pinkspiderhide]

Feeling the hand on his shoulder he turned and grabbed onto Kami holding onto him as tightly as he could. The tears still stung his eyes as he just clutched and hung on his friend. It was so nice to have atleast one person he could actually feel and knew that they could touch back and see him, hear him.

The pain in his eyes...I can't bare to see Yoshiki like that...and it's MY fault...I put it there when I...it hurts...

[kaminotenshi]

I know... hide... I know... he whispered softly in as soothing of a voice as he could find. He knew a little better of how hide felt in this situation for after he died, Gackt blamed him for it. As the vocalist still put it, Kami had left him. Their experiences weren't exactly the same... but... pain was universal, now wasn't it? Still... Kami was at a loss; what more could he do that simply be there for hide? He couldn't magically make things better and as of late, Gackt had made himself very scarce... but he wished he could, dearly; wished he could fix things for hide. Anything to stop the pink spider from crying. Those tears hurt Kami dearly for some far fetched reason.

...I'm sorry...

[pinkspiderhide]

I tried to touch him..and I can't...not like I can touch you now...I couldn't dry his tears...I can't be there for him like I want to. I want to appologize...tell him I was wrong...I just...I want to hold him again...it's not fair...to make me see this and leave me helpless. I've NEVER been helples...not like this...

The tears tappered off and he just remained as he was, holding onto Kami. He was so comforted by the other man's presence, he couldn't help but bask in being able to have contact with someone.

I know I've not said it...but you've been a great comfort to me since I first came back...ever since the first day...Arigatou Kami...