aita yo..
I think false hopes hurt the most.
Although I know you've long forgotten about this, I'm sorry I just can't.. It'll take time. But at least now.. I've realised that you and I, we're like a broken vase. We could piece us back together, but a few pieces, a few large pieces of us are missing, and we're never getting them back, because I carelessly and stupidly threw them away with my own hands. Without those broken shards, not only will the vase be incomplete, it will never be able to stand independently, the pieces missing are way too important to the structure of the vase.
The large pieces being Trust, Faith, and most importantly, Love.
I have 2 Prelim P.O.A papers that Kelvin gave me to complete by Sunday. Kinda hyped! Haha now that I can actually do the questions without the need of the answer keys. (yes i needed them ALOOT.) Need to start on History as well..
It's a major irony how I can't wait for the exams to end but at the same time I want a lot more time to get myself really prepared for it, so I can walk in and out of the exam hall confidently. Right now I'm still way lacking of that. Less than a month to go! Yoshi!
I don't know if I'm making up for past mistakes but I've been extra honest about myself lately, even to strangers I meet for the first time. I'll tell them everything about me so there wouldn't be any doubts in the future. I'm wondering if its too much for someone who barely knows you. (Well now he knows a lot since I told him everything.) Heh, I just can't help it. Being different from others is one thing, but being accepted for being different is a complete other. I'm not sure anyone who reads this really gets what I mean. But that's okay, it's a me thing. And we all know I'm weird. So let's just leave it at that. At the end of the day I know there are people who genuinely care and love me regardless of what I am and what I do. And to God I'm grateful for that.
(Actually the outside cut is supposed to decrease the amount of emo-y aura in this entry but it seems my emo-ness is overflowing tonight -_- Gomenasai.)
Meow.
Okay I shall go bury my face into my pillow now (I sleep that way, cannot ah?) lest my Dad (yes he's back, again. #@$#@$!@) starts complaining about me waking too late again. G'night ya'll- no wait, you're probably already asleep. So sweet dreams.