And everything's cool as long as I'm getting thinner...
So Sunday, when I last posted, I had eaten nothing but drank all day.
Yesterday it was 285kcal (a gherkin, miso soup, oatcakes).
Today it was 211kcal (fruit juice).
I don't really feel hungry. I did earlier. I just want to eat. Big plate of pasta. Chips. A lovely chickpea curry. Stir fry with rice.
Just want to stuff my fat, stupid face. Feel warm and full inside.
I forgot that it's the cold that always gets to you first. The shakes stopped yesterday. Everything aches but I put that down partly to the fact I'm freezing, partly to the cold I'm still only just shaking off. I'm going to yoga tomorrow so that will help.
Already feel slightly slimmer, size-ten jeans fitting easier than usual. Taunting myself constantly with pro-ana websites.
Considering having a bath and bed soon to take my mind off the food I want to eat. Even just a packet of oatcakes would only push me up 258kcal more, to 469kcal, but even that feels like something I should just be able to do without.
Yesterday it was 285kcal (a gherkin, miso soup, oatcakes).
Today it was 211kcal (fruit juice).
I don't really feel hungry. I did earlier. I just want to eat. Big plate of pasta. Chips. A lovely chickpea curry. Stir fry with rice.
Just want to stuff my fat, stupid face. Feel warm and full inside.
I forgot that it's the cold that always gets to you first. The shakes stopped yesterday. Everything aches but I put that down partly to the fact I'm freezing, partly to the cold I'm still only just shaking off. I'm going to yoga tomorrow so that will help.
Already feel slightly slimmer, size-ten jeans fitting easier than usual. Taunting myself constantly with pro-ana websites.
Considering having a bath and bed soon to take my mind off the food I want to eat. Even just a packet of oatcakes would only push me up 258kcal more, to 469kcal, but even that feels like something I should just be able to do without.