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Chris broke up with me
... because I hate him.
Jenny & Elaina spoke to him at lunch (I didn't ask them too!), and they came back and said he thought I hated him. Or, he was very sure that I hated him.
Yes, because going out with someone totally puts that message across, right? Maybe it's because I wasn't the clingy/sentimental-type of girlfriend with him, but if he had been sentimental and clingy, I would have been also. But he's always so aloof and standoffish, and I so often got the feeling that he didn't like me much, so I thought it wasn't worth the embarassment of trying to be mushy, and him rejecting it.
Oh well. Chris, I hope you feel like a dumb ass now, which I'm sure you do. Though maybe this will acuse you to go crazy, or snap, and tomorrow you'll come in with a gun or some knives and start hacking away at the first people you see. Just like you said on the phone; when you told me it would be cool if you created a Columbine situation.
He's crazy, I swear. There is seriously something wrong with him (Chris). He has such a warped sense of reality... I hope he doesn't snap, because I'll probably be #1 on that list of his.
* * *
I also went shopping yesterday, with mum and dad, and at Target, I got My Chemical Romance's album "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge" and Hawthorne Heights' album "The Silence in Black & White".
I'm not really happy with "TSiB&W" -- I rather would have gotten that Yellowcard or Cake CD that I was looking at, but when I was looking around, I heard their song Ohio is for Lovers (I love it!) on the intercom, and so I bought it... ARGH. I wish I had gotten the Cake CD. Or Yellowcard (yes, I listen to Yellowcard. Screw you if you think that's dumb; I'm not trying to impress you). Or H.I.M.'s "Razorblade Romance" album (WHICH I WANT SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOO BAD!!!!!), IF THEY HAD IT! (which they don't. FUCKING TARGET! YOU HAD IT LAST TIME!!).
I also want Velvet Revolver's newest album, that Cake CD with the pig in front, the Yellowcard one I saw (with "Ocean Avenue"), Maroon 5's "Songs About Jane", Ayumi Hamasaki's "My Story" and, umm... Forgot the rest I want. But I do want more. I'm actually buying my music now, because getting CDs and owning them and being able to listen to them whenever fill sme with some sort of happiness... <3
I also got new shoes. Aurora, gray, and pink Vans. I lurve.
Umm. So yeah...
* * *
Today... Hmm. Valentine's Day!! Lots of candy. A bunch of my guy friends were giving me chocolate; I felt so bad because I didn't get anyone but 6 people stuff! ;~;
Chris was high today; he was having this big-ass "letdown" at lunch today. It was funny. And I was thinking, "HA! I hope some of that's because of me, bitch!"
TOMORROW
I am possibly going to approach the boy who I have a crush on. He's taller than me. And older. Junior or senior maybe? He has P.E. the same period I do, but he never hangs around with anyone maybe because he's reading all the time, or he just doesn't want to screw around with those fuckin' annoying freshmen... Rah. He doesn't eat lunch with anyone either, which should really point out that he's some kind of bookworm or "nerd" as my friends so eloquently put it, but I have this odd sort of feeling about him. A good one.
Is it wrong for me to feel so jealous and so envious, when my old crush (the Guy with the Pants) gave his girlfriend this gorgeous bouquet of purple-pink flowers, as I was passing by? It was such a melancholy feeling...
That, and I think Landon has a girlfriend. But maybe that was just some random chick giving him a candy bar...
*Sigh*
Despite some dubbing this "Singles Awareness Day," I love V Day. I LOVE IT. There's this really blissful, happy feeling everywhere! :)
... because I hate him.
Jenny & Elaina spoke to him at lunch (I didn't ask them too!), and they came back and said he thought I hated him. Or, he was very sure that I hated him.
Yes, because going out with someone totally puts that message across, right? Maybe it's because I wasn't the clingy/sentimental-type of girlfriend with him, but if he had been sentimental and clingy, I would have been also. But he's always so aloof and standoffish, and I so often got the feeling that he didn't like me much, so I thought it wasn't worth the embarassment of trying to be mushy, and him rejecting it.
Oh well. Chris, I hope you feel like a dumb ass now, which I'm sure you do. Though maybe this will acuse you to go crazy, or snap, and tomorrow you'll come in with a gun or some knives and start hacking away at the first people you see. Just like you said on the phone; when you told me it would be cool if you created a Columbine situation.
He's crazy, I swear. There is seriously something wrong with him (Chris). He has such a warped sense of reality... I hope he doesn't snap, because I'll probably be #1 on that list of his.
* * *
I also went shopping yesterday, with mum and dad, and at Target, I got My Chemical Romance's album "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge" and Hawthorne Heights' album "The Silence in Black & White".
I'm not really happy with "TSiB&W" -- I rather would have gotten that Yellowcard or Cake CD that I was looking at, but when I was looking around, I heard their song Ohio is for Lovers (I love it!) on the intercom, and so I bought it... ARGH. I wish I had gotten the Cake CD. Or Yellowcard (yes, I listen to Yellowcard. Screw you if you think that's dumb; I'm not trying to impress you). Or H.I.M.'s "Razorblade Romance" album (WHICH I WANT SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SOOOOOOO BAD!!!!!), IF THEY HAD IT! (which they don't. FUCKING TARGET! YOU HAD IT LAST TIME!!).
I also want Velvet Revolver's newest album, that Cake CD with the pig in front, the Yellowcard one I saw (with "Ocean Avenue"), Maroon 5's "Songs About Jane", Ayumi Hamasaki's "My Story" and, umm... Forgot the rest I want. But I do want more. I'm actually buying my music now, because getting CDs and owning them and being able to listen to them whenever fill sme with some sort of happiness... <3
I also got new shoes. Aurora, gray, and pink Vans. I lurve.
Umm. So yeah...
* * *
Today... Hmm. Valentine's Day!! Lots of candy. A bunch of my guy friends were giving me chocolate; I felt so bad because I didn't get anyone but 6 people stuff! ;~;
Chris was high today; he was having this big-ass "letdown" at lunch today. It was funny. And I was thinking, "HA! I hope some of that's because of me, bitch!"
TOMORROW
I am possibly going to approach the boy who I have a crush on. He's taller than me. And older. Junior or senior maybe? He has P.E. the same period I do, but he never hangs around with anyone maybe because he's reading all the time, or he just doesn't want to screw around with those fuckin' annoying freshmen... Rah. He doesn't eat lunch with anyone either, which should really point out that he's some kind of bookworm or "nerd" as my friends so eloquently put it, but I have this odd sort of feeling about him. A good one.
Is it wrong for me to feel so jealous and so envious, when my old crush (the Guy with the Pants) gave his girlfriend this gorgeous bouquet of purple-pink flowers, as I was passing by? It was such a melancholy feeling...
That, and I think Landon has a girlfriend. But maybe that was just some random chick giving him a candy bar...
*Sigh*
Despite some dubbing this "Singles Awareness Day," I love V Day. I LOVE IT. There's this really blissful, happy feeling everywhere! :)