yes, i realize...

[pixie_lily]

first: thanks to everyone for their kind comments to my last post.

second: madelyn, i've moved the rest of this entry down the page, because while i know you're incredibly strong, i don't want to blindside you with my anguished ramblings...

a breakdown at the kitchen table brought my fears about my mother's mortality rushing to the

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[delyn14]

No, you sure aren't ready. But, when it happens, and I am flesh and blood proof of this..life will go on. You'll survive.

[pixie_lily]

it's not a matter of doubting my ability to survive, because i know i will. it's knowing from experience how awful "surviving" can feel, and dreading it.

[delyn14]

Amen to that. I know that it's not true, and I know that it's a normal part of grieving, but I feel like the rest of my life will be just "existing". Yuck.