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so, i went to NYC on saturday and had a blast i guess with some people. i stayed with amy and dan schwartz which was way way fun. i also got high three times this weekend which was way sweet. yeah, partied hard this weekend. now i feel it is time already to start planning this coming weekend. i also feel like i have a ton to do this week and ( Read more... )

well, i went to my first gay club last night. it was incredible. the place is called stonewall and is in allentown not too far from school. the dancing was amazing and the drag show was fun. i think i am going to go back like every-other week. i can't believe i'd never been before ( Read more... )

things are getting better i suppose. i mean, i still wish certain things hadn't happended and i'm trying really hard to make it all ok, but i can only do so much. i think i'd like to take a break from life for a while. i skipped spanish today for the third time which means that i can't do that again without an excuse. i wish i had gotten up ( Read more... )

I'm so tired of all this shit. i hate that i can't hang on to any relationship for more than two months. i can't believe i have felt so shitty. i can't believe i still like him so much. i can't believe i'm so tired. i can't believe i didn't cry. i can't believe there's so little choice. i can't believe i'm saying all this shit. i can't believe i ( Read more... )

Fuck. This royaly sucks. i really don't think i can handle this right now. i'm so tired and i need to be asleep, but unless i cry myself into that state, it's not gonna happen. I'm basically reliving a slightly less drastic version of the event(s) from which all of my relationship issues stem. Fuck.

i'm sorta scared a bit. a bunch of people i know are going to get AIDS tested here at school. I feel like i should probably do it too, but, i mean, i seriously don't think i've ever been exposed, and i've always used a condom and it's never broken. I've also never experienced any symptoms. it's just so scary.

I don't know what to do.

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well, i've not updated in a while and i thought i would. i have some stuff that has been happening that is really really great, but other stuff isn't so hot. all in all though, this weekend was pretty amazing. i got to work at Dorney park on friday night and scare little children which was fun. on saturday, even though they didn't need us, i ( Read more... )