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[pixiepanic]

 I have been feeling unbelievably, gutwrenchingly lonely of late. I've been stuck in this hellish CFS relapse since mid-October and whilst it's better than it was, it's not exactly good.  I still can't leave the flat much by myself, or at all. In times like this, I have far too much time to myself to think and to dwell and to overanalyse everything

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[nearuncertainty]

I had an illness that separated me from my friends much the same way it sounds like yours is. Its hard to watch everyone move forward and feel stuck yourself. I can't say it gets easier or better, but there are some things you can do to help. People love to talk about themselves so if you can get them going, they will fill in the silence. Find interesting articles on-line and send them to friends. Talk about that. Talk about your thoughts on a new book, on politics, on anything you can both access. Ask them about their work/school/parties/newest show. The point is to simply get them going.

It doesn't solve the problem but it keeps people close enough that when you are feeling well you have people to go and hang out with. Good luck.

[pixiepanic]

Thanks Laura. I hereby give you permission to text me whenever you see fit - if I'm busy or asleep I'll reply later, the phone never wakes me up although I often fall asleep mid-response >.< and wake up to a text full of hhhhggghhhhjjjjjfffffff etc.

You're welcome to come round whenever you have the time free, or we could come and visit you sometime if that's easier for you, although you should really come and meet our pusscat :)

[sauvagerie]

The point of being happy & functional is that it feels a lot better than being sad & dysfunctional. It's for you, not for everyone else.

I am much like you in terms of socializing--I don't need much, but what little I need, I NEED. Teaching is weird in that it's simultaneously overstimulating and isolating: I spend most of my interpersonal energy on my students, so I don't have much left for my friends, but I still get bummed out when I don't see/stay in contact with my friends. And then the days slip past...I have a letter from a friend overseas that's been sitting on my desk waiting for a response for 2 months. So, yeah.

As for responding to others' contact, I can only speak for myself but I know that if I say to a friend "What's new?" I don't really care if anything is new. Your friends know your situation. If the biggest thing you did in a given day was to put on socks, you should proclaim that with pride and we will congratulate you.

Random coincidence: twigletstar has the same RL name as me. :-)