Self-Indulgent Thinky Post
I've been going through a lot of food issues this past week and have been experiencing some set backs, but I had an amusing incident at the Vitamin Shoppe that I'm only just realizing happened, three days later. I was reading this article on Jezebel about new male mannequins having a 27-inch waistline and thinking about changing ideals for male attractiveness, when the memory of this guy at the Vitamin Shoppe popped into my head.
I was running errands with my mother over the weekend and she had something on her list that we could only get at this place, so we headed in and separated while she targeted her supplement and I wandered around the beauty section, idly looking for gift ideas. When I was on my way to join up with her, this guy and I walked into the same open area and while taking in the look of him (tall, handsome, fit, wearing work out clothes and carrying a basket full of massive containers), our eyes met and I was surprised by the look of near-panic in his. We weren't that close in distance, so I didn't feel like I'd gotten into his personal space, and I wasn't sure why he rabbited away so quickly, but dismissed it as I headed over to where my mom was comparing labels.
Only when I remembered the moment, did it become clear to me that here's this guy that works out regularly, using protein powders and whatever else to help achieve his goals, running into a fat chick in the middle of the Vitamin Shoppe and seeing perhaps the antithesis to all of his goals? The reminder that this could happen to him if he's not careful?
It seems funny now that I think about it. I probably looked like a monster to him!
Anyway, I didn't gain back nearly as much as i'd thought I had, so that's good. And sometimes the best way for me to deal with my weight/food issues is to regress a little, realize that it's not making me happy and get back on track. I'm hoping that by doing it this way, by the time I get down to my goal weight, I'll be less freaked out than I was the last time, which should make it easier to stay there and not gain it all back.
I keep bouncing back and forth between the 35-40 lb loss mark, but I'm hoping to keep it more steady at 40 so that I can start working on 45. It can be done!
I was running errands with my mother over the weekend and she had something on her list that we could only get at this place, so we headed in and separated while she targeted her supplement and I wandered around the beauty section, idly looking for gift ideas. When I was on my way to join up with her, this guy and I walked into the same open area and while taking in the look of him (tall, handsome, fit, wearing work out clothes and carrying a basket full of massive containers), our eyes met and I was surprised by the look of near-panic in his. We weren't that close in distance, so I didn't feel like I'd gotten into his personal space, and I wasn't sure why he rabbited away so quickly, but dismissed it as I headed over to where my mom was comparing labels.
Only when I remembered the moment, did it become clear to me that here's this guy that works out regularly, using protein powders and whatever else to help achieve his goals, running into a fat chick in the middle of the Vitamin Shoppe and seeing perhaps the antithesis to all of his goals? The reminder that this could happen to him if he's not careful?
It seems funny now that I think about it. I probably looked like a monster to him!
Anyway, I didn't gain back nearly as much as i'd thought I had, so that's good. And sometimes the best way for me to deal with my weight/food issues is to regress a little, realize that it's not making me happy and get back on track. I'm hoping that by doing it this way, by the time I get down to my goal weight, I'll be less freaked out than I was the last time, which should make it easier to stay there and not gain it all back.
I keep bouncing back and forth between the 35-40 lb loss mark, but I'm hoping to keep it more steady at 40 so that I can start working on 45. It can be done!