I can't seem to put myself into study mode at all. :/ I have one more final tomorrow before I go on my summer break for a week and a half. I'm so excited! I'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled! Can you sense the sarcasm wafting off of my pixels ( Read more... )

The more I think about it, the more I think I have nothing to live for. I can't look back on my life and smile. I can't look at my future and think I have a chance to become something I can be proud of. Earlier this summer, I thought I would be okay. That I would make a turn around and that all the pieces of my life were finally falling into place ( Read more... )

I feel like a part of me just died right now. It's almost like a flashback to last fall where I was so deep in depression. Same pain, different cause. I think everything about reality just hit me right now all over again ( Read more... )

I miss the days when I could just sit around and waste my time without having any worries. Now, I wish I had more time in a day to spend. My life currently seems like one of those Harvest Moon games where one task takes up the entire workday. I just want to be irresponsible and run away from it all ( Read more... )

My life is slowly picking up. I guess I'm finally beginning to get my act together, but I'm far from feeling content. Those rare breaks where I don't have to worry about school is when I'm the happiest. The past weekend was the only time I felt so happy and light-hearted despite my worries. For once, I was able to smile and feel like I truly meant ( Read more... )

I guess I just wanted to say that it's okay. You don't have to talk to me. I honestly don't want you to. Every text message you send me is like another stab at where I'm vulnerable. If this is about reconciling, we're on good terms. If this is about me needing someone to talk to, it's okay, I have people that I need to learn to trust and open up to ( Read more... )

I think in the next six months, I can gradually stop being so angry about a lot of things. Funny how most (if not all) of my college friends think I really hate, detest, wish hell on Korean people. I don't hate Koreans. I really don't ( Read more... )

I'm cleaning my room right now and I realized that I'm missing an eraser and pen that Susan gave me. I don't even know when it happened. I probably brought them to class and lost them somehow. I doubt they're in my room. I don't see anything ( Read more... )

I need to learn some real humility. I need to keep an open-mind and a controlled temper. I need to learn how to breathe and keep my priorities focused.

I have a lot of learning to do.

(: You know, it's so much easier to act like an immature bitch. It's just the consequences that are difficult.