and the hits just keep on coming....i've been asking myself whether i really deserve any of this....and i feel like i dont...but wouldnt it have stopped by now?

so i've decided that my ideal man wears a pinstripe suit with an indie rock band t-shirt with white cons. *sigh* just dont know where he is yet...

experiencing an evergreen moment....

it was like some modern cinderella story. i just dont know how. the night was perfect and so was everything else. the only thing that seemed not right were my thoughts and fears. how do you take a chance, and let your heart for once do all the talking? how do you forget something that mattered to you, and let it be carried away on the high hot wind ( Read more... )

Its strange how all good things must come to an end at some point in time, yet bad things can continue on forever. We build up walls in order to hide from the pain of loss and sadness, but all it does is keep out the joy as well. Our only hope is that sadness will fly away on the wings of time.  Its like taking a chance...or forgiving someone for ( Read more... )

ITALY WON BABY!!!! IT WAS AMAZING

happy days make happy memories. yesterday was the fair. Its been way too long. I got married, danced my heart out to the beating of the massive drum tower, talked without words with a drummer, and made many new friends.  Such a wonderful day. I seem to have new order stuck in my head as well. Happiness.....

oh lordy am i tired. i feel like  yesterday and today are just one day. i think they secretly are, but the sun is just fooling us or something. i just took a 4 hour nap between days...yes...thats it....so yesterday was the longest day at work ever. i went to the hospital at 6 in the morning, then to event services at 8. I then went to class to take ( Read more... )

....and the wind still smelled of lavender, the scent that unveiled memories of the happiest moments of her life. the breakfasts her grandmother used to make on the weekends, and how it will never be the same when anyone else makes it...the loving touch of a sister, when she hugs you after you've both been apart for so long...the curious dancing ( Read more... )

so i sat outside on my comfy couch watching the fireworks from all around the city and got to thinking about all the things im willing to wait for. passion and mystery, spirit and substance. and with each passing explosion i realized that sometimes it doesn't matter what you do to get to where you need to be, as long as you want it enough to take ( Read more... )