i love dancing in the rain with erika at 3 am

i wanted to give u some time to cool off about the whole situation at hand. im not writing in this journal to try and put u down or defend what i have done, but i just want you to hear me out...hear what i have to say and either listen to me or forget about this entry completely. but i do hope u listen. there is nothing i can say to justify what i ( Read more... )

sometimes its hard. to face reality that is. but when im told the truth i always appreciate it no matter how hard it hurts. and yes it hurts bad. but i dont hate you. i love you. im so dissapointed though. how could you do this. how could you let this happen. she loves you even though she cant say it. you stabbed her in the back. and after ALL this ( Read more... )

im lost i think i need to find myself; is it possible to be numb to life? when nothing phases me anymore ( Read more... )

ok raychel your and my mother are the same. shes so scared raychel. she doesnt know what to do. she feels like your going to end up just like your father or your brother. she doesnt know how to stop you. she would do anything for you and she knows you know that. but yes its always good to hear her say it. she knows your going to go through stages ( Read more... )

This is a hard thing to explain. i feel as if im slipping away from everyone. i have no one to talk to. its hard to consult with anyone. i miss someone dearly and i dont think things will ever be the same with her again, raychel i love you ( Read more... )

ITS FRIDAY AND IM OFF TO TAMPA WITH LEXIE AND KATY TO WATCH KILLIAN AND ARVIDA CHEERLEADERS COMPETE AT STATE FAIR !!!

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY

i am a marionette.

addiction is pulling my strings.

testosterone, illegal substances, party life, maddness, jealousy...your smile and charm.

i cant stop any of it.

not that i want to anyways.

well last night was fun. Went out with just us girls roca raychel nikki carol krisin emas aly jen. its weird how we hardly see eachother in school or hardly even talk to one another and then when the weekend hits BAM partttty time!! its all good though, im glad we all still have time to hang out with eachother ( Read more... )

you'll always have a piece of my heart to take with you. im scared, yet hoping for the best.